Bad Day
I had a bad day. It wasn't bad in the darkness is setting in way, it was just one thing after another slugging me and I didn't let it get me down- I just rolled with it. I was running late this morning and I woke up to find my car had been pulled into the garage and Jill's truck was blocking me in. So, I had to wake Jill up, have her move her truck, and get my ass to work. I wasn't late. Phew. I guess magically the register I was on Saturday turned up missing ten dollars. I counted the money, it was there. Not only that, but I didn't have any ten dollar even transactions on Saturday. It might just be, "missing," my boss will let me know. Anyhow I got a verbal warning and moved on. I am training a new girl and she just doesn't seem to be focusing, which puts pressure on me to correct her errors. This pit bull puppy came in from animal control all unkept which triggered everyone to talking about all these horrible cases they've seen at work. Which led to a talk about the type of people that work there. Which eventually led to me and Pam and New Girl talking about the Thanksgiving night Maire died and how I worked my shift. Which led to me crying then and there. I am still really missing Maire. Everyday I think of her and I want her back. Everyday I feel her loss and I hurt for her. I knew what I had in her, and I never missed an opportunity to love her, so I only miss what we had and what we didn't get to have. I do not wonder why anymore, because I know there is no good reason for it. Shyte just happens and you've got to get through it as best you can and carry on. Some stuff you never get over and you just carry it with you forever. I will carry Maire with me forever. "Sometimes all you can do is cry while you do your job," Pam said, and I agree. No animal should die alone and someone should cry for every passing. I want to be there with them when they die and I know I will cry for them. I don't know if I would understand this without having lost Maire. Ah, bad days, they really do make me go a little crazy.