things I hate
Isn't it amazing how hate can change people? How you can be a perfectly happy, logical, calm person one minute and then when you are reminded of that thing, that trigger that sets you off, you just go off.
Its an amazing feeling when you think about it, not in a good way, but its astounding how this "trigger" can make you stop caring about the consequences of your actions? When I am around one of my triggers my hatred is almost obsessive and if that trigger is a person my only aim is to make that person miserable.
I like to think about this when I see someone else doing the same. from my calm controlled environment I often judge them in a disapproving manner but when I put my self in their place I completely understand, I can be just like you. I feel like I have a certain connection with everything that has ever felt anger like mine...
Also when you hate someone do you ever find yourself dehumanizing them? Its funny because I usually think about them as apathetic or malicious individuals with no worth. Its so easy to hate.
on another note:
Its funny how different things look from santa barbara. I'm not sure what I believe anymore.
Its an amazing feeling when you think about it, not in a good way, but its astounding how this "trigger" can make you stop caring about the consequences of your actions? When I am around one of my triggers my hatred is almost obsessive and if that trigger is a person my only aim is to make that person miserable.
I like to think about this when I see someone else doing the same. from my calm controlled environment I often judge them in a disapproving manner but when I put my self in their place I completely understand, I can be just like you. I feel like I have a certain connection with everything that has ever felt anger like mine...
Also when you hate someone do you ever find yourself dehumanizing them? Its funny because I usually think about them as apathetic or malicious individuals with no worth. Its so easy to hate.
on another note:
Its funny how different things look from santa barbara. I'm not sure what I believe anymore.