Excuse me while I fall apart...
I can't remember feeling this lost or confused - ever. It's like this piece of me is gone, and I don't know how to get it back. I don't know if I can function without it. I'm so afraid of screwing everything up and losing it forever and just hitting this horrible downward spiral...I'm sorry that I'm whining on LJ but this is one of few places I can go to let shit out. I can't hold it in anymore.
I'm hopeless.
I'm hopeless.