Telling myself that I wont cry

[scottieeg]

I wish I knew what I should do. I am so confused and life is becoming so stressful all over again. I wish this whole thing could just be fine, but that’s not going to happen. The thing that hurts me the most you’re not going to get rid of, but will you change it. That’s sounds so stupid. You know what I need, but I just don’t feel it. I can’t feel it. It even hurts to think about the possibility. Well maybe you will just figure this whole thing out. Maybe it will just work it’s self out. Maybe or maybe not. I am so confused. I am hurt so much. But it you even saw me and looked at me and did not say anything I would probably tell you I love you, and that’s because I still do.

On a more happier note, even thought you are the best thing in my life, I got into NJIT as a transfer student so no more Berkeley for me.

My heart is in so much pain

-Scott