feeling guilty
Something that really bugs me about myself is that I feel guilty when I don't please people, when I've done or haven't done stuff that pisses people off. Today my dad mentioned that when we got to the shop this morning he wanted to show me this thing he had done at physical therapy to his spine that relieved the pressure on his back. I have to admit that I wasn't too thrilled about that, how is dad going to teach me how to do that anyway, and besides I"m not a fucking physical therapist. I didn't say no but when we got to the shop I had three dirty beds a client in one so that made four out of five were dirty and I needed to do the transfer. He mentioned it again and I told him I would have to do it later, and he got mad at me I guess because he left without saying anything to me. I feel really guilty he's been taking me to work every day why didn't I just do it even if it wasn't right just to appease him? Why can't I just accept that sometimes people are going to be irritated with you? Why do I feel the need to make everyone like me and be happy with me all the time? I feel so guilty, and over this it's ridiculous it has ruined my morning. What is wrong with me?