Drama ! ! ! ! !
I hate complaining on my journal entry's but guess what? It's my fucking journal and I'll wine all the fuck I want to, if you don't like it, then don't read my entry! I'm just upset lately, I was supposed to go on a blind/double-date this weekend but my plans fell through the floor. It really upsets me though b/c I'm really sick of being lonely. I know what all of your reply's will probably say..."Don't go looking for love, just be patient, " and I know already ok? It's just that I've been patient for so long since I was with Steven that I've grown very sick of being patient. I'm restless and it really upsets me. I bought Broke-Back-Mountain yesterday and found out that I need new friends. They all said typically the same thing, "gay cowboys? Cowboys aren't supposed to be gay!" It's like this, the movie is much more than just two cow-boys fucking the whole time, sure there are a couple of hot and juicy scenes, but god damn, it's not about being gay! It's about having a love that you know could never work. It's almost like me and Andrew, we live too far apart, and have grown so far apart. I don't really want to date him anymore, sorry Andrew, but you haven't called me so I haven't been able to tell you this... I may not want to be patient in finding love again, but I'm sure it'll come... I feel really bad about Miles, I havent called him since he told me he may have aids... I hope he doesn't think the aids is why! I still wanna move in with him, but not fuck him! Well, enough of my drama for today, I'm out ~Luvs, Gavin~