Oy...
Life has had a lot of changes occur for me recently. Including a lot of questions, some of which I don't think I really want to know answers to.
I started playing with a new group. I absolutely hate it. I already know I won't be able to stay there long. The director is a total douche and I honestly just don't feel like I fit in at all. If I stay for too long I already know that it'll make me hate playing. I can see myself actually hating to pick up my instrument, and I hate that thought. But the money is good.
I think at the moment I'm just going to keep busting ass as much as I can and just bank some money. I know I'll need it or want it at some point, and I honestly don't have all that much cause to spend money at the moment.
Several people have recently become absent from my life. It feels weird. Sometimes you just need to know that someone is there when you randomly need someone to talk to, ya know? I know a few of them will wander back at some point, others... not so much.
I'm looking forwards to finally going back to school soon. It'll be nice to feel like I'm actually going somewhere with life. I'm working up an audition piece once again, my boss is actually making me audition to get a scholarship next semester. It kind of makes me laugh a little.
I started playing with a new group. I absolutely hate it. I already know I won't be able to stay there long. The director is a total douche and I honestly just don't feel like I fit in at all. If I stay for too long I already know that it'll make me hate playing. I can see myself actually hating to pick up my instrument, and I hate that thought. But the money is good.
I think at the moment I'm just going to keep busting ass as much as I can and just bank some money. I know I'll need it or want it at some point, and I honestly don't have all that much cause to spend money at the moment.
Several people have recently become absent from my life. It feels weird. Sometimes you just need to know that someone is there when you randomly need someone to talk to, ya know? I know a few of them will wander back at some point, others... not so much.
I'm looking forwards to finally going back to school soon. It'll be nice to feel like I'm actually going somewhere with life. I'm working up an audition piece once again, my boss is actually making me audition to get a scholarship next semester. It kind of makes me laugh a little.