some things i should say but don't have the courage
i guess there are just some things i need to say...
i've been running for so long i don't know how to stand still...
i've been running from my emotions...which i have and they embaress me frequently...
from my mom who i love and hate with equal ferocity because she is psycho and a child all in one...
from my family because i don't know if they could accept if they really knew what i did, who i was...i just don't like to dissapoint those i love...i would rather lie to them then tell them the truth...like me not going to school, why i don't have a job, while when i did go to school i failed...i let them keep thinking everything good about me...it works but it is tiring keeping up the pretenses...
from my dad who is a drunk and has many problems but i love him because he isn't perfect and he me loves me...
from my friends because sometimes i just don't know what to do when i am around them...i love them all so much and i don't want them to ever forget that especially when i don't see them for a while...or i just seem out of it and i am done because i have said to much and i now making this private and its sad
i've been running for so long i don't know how to stand still...
i've been running from my emotions...which i have and they embaress me frequently...
from my mom who i love and hate with equal ferocity because she is psycho and a child all in one...
from my family because i don't know if they could accept if they really knew what i did, who i was...i just don't like to dissapoint those i love...i would rather lie to them then tell them the truth...like me not going to school, why i don't have a job, while when i did go to school i failed...i let them keep thinking everything good about me...it works but it is tiring keeping up the pretenses...
from my dad who is a drunk and has many problems but i love him because he isn't perfect and he me loves me...
from my friends because sometimes i just don't know what to do when i am around them...i love them all so much and i don't want them to ever forget that especially when i don't see them for a while...or i just seem out of it and i am done because i have said to much and i now making this private and its sad