Feelings

[scotchtape1202]

I don't know what to do right now. I feel like shit. I feel that sometimes, no matter what I do, I will never do anything right. For example, I missed school last Monday so that I could get some extra hours. That was dumb because I had a test today that I didn't know some things on. :( I know that I try to be perfect and I am sorry for that. All I have ever wanted in life was to be successful. But you need money to get money. That is something that I don't have! So how am I supposed to get ahead? How do you get the things you need to get where you want to be? I have Tim at least. Maybe I should stop complaining. I have all that I need for my life to continue. I have the love of my life, at my side for always. I just wish that there was some way for my life to skip a few years so that I was already graduated from college and married. If I were out of school, I could get a good job that I liked and I could have a baby. I want a baby more than I want to go to school. But that's all up to Tim. Does anyone out there have about a million dollars that they want to give me???? If you do, I would love you forever. (Second to Tim, of course though!)
Anyways, I am going to bed now so that I don't start thinking of things that are stressing me out right now. I have to work in the morning at 9. Yuck! I hate Kmart. Let's just hope that I get that job at the bank when school gets out. I would really like that job! NO MORE KMART! :) :)
Good night all. Hugs and Kisses.