Life, the light and the dark...
Well, my party is over and I had a lot of fun... despite a few setbacks, even on the night. I got to see Robbie, which made me soo happy, and reminded me just how much I miss him.
I got some cool stuff, including a 'Bop It!' from Danny, a chocolate cocktail mix from Danny's family, a gorgeous red-leather notebook cover inlaid with Celtic knotwork from my aunt and uncle, a GOOD hair cut and foils from another set of aunt and uncle, an Italian leather jacket from my parents, a silver bracelet with the words 'Creihla shona duit!' engraved on it from my sister (it's Gaelic for Happy Birthday), a mont blonc fountian pen with case and inks from my Uncle Nik, and a wolf plushie from Robbie.
I also recently got to renew my license, though I'm still on my P's until May 10th. I even got a decent picture!
I met Arctic Pete and Firey the other night, though I'd sorta briefly met them at MIDFur last year, and discovered two really cool guys. Hope to catch up with them both again, as will probably happen since they're living round here now...
But throughout all this is my car fucking up (will hopefully get fixed on Wednesday), my TV playing up (will have to get a new one soon), overtiredness and an inability to sleep, and a cold thats been going for almost a month, among other things.
And overlaying everything is my usual blanket of loneliness, desire, tension, depression and self-doubt. There seems to be nothing to look forward to, nothing to drive me... everything is feeling so stagnant... so... grey...
I am just looking forward to when things start to look up... after two years I'm starting to need it...
I got some cool stuff, including a 'Bop It!' from Danny, a chocolate cocktail mix from Danny's family, a gorgeous red-leather notebook cover inlaid with Celtic knotwork from my aunt and uncle, a GOOD hair cut and foils from another set of aunt and uncle, an Italian leather jacket from my parents, a silver bracelet with the words 'Creihla shona duit!' engraved on it from my sister (it's Gaelic for Happy Birthday), a mont blonc fountian pen with case and inks from my Uncle Nik, and a wolf plushie from Robbie.
I also recently got to renew my license, though I'm still on my P's until May 10th. I even got a decent picture!
I met Arctic Pete and Firey the other night, though I'd sorta briefly met them at MIDFur last year, and discovered two really cool guys. Hope to catch up with them both again, as will probably happen since they're living round here now...
But throughout all this is my car fucking up (will hopefully get fixed on Wednesday), my TV playing up (will have to get a new one soon), overtiredness and an inability to sleep, and a cold thats been going for almost a month, among other things.
And overlaying everything is my usual blanket of loneliness, desire, tension, depression and self-doubt. There seems to be nothing to look forward to, nothing to drive me... everything is feeling so stagnant... so... grey...
I am just looking forward to when things start to look up... after two years I'm starting to need it...