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today i got out of work early and i went to see loran so we could have a talk at ford field.
and i spilled my guts out to him, about what i was really feeling, what had happened to me.
he did the same, and we understood each other.
it was like talking to a kindred spirit.
he made me a mix CD, and this song, anthem, was on it.
on my way home i listened to it on repeat, and i started noticing all of the beauty around me.
the way the outline of the trees looked in front of a dark blue sky,
the way the little orange lights lit up my path home.
the way my legs shook as the small but frequent vibrations from the car hitting the potholes on rotunda moved its way up.
the way my hands moved on the steering wheel, at the helm of this machine that enables me to go places my body cannot take me.
i started to appreciate the little things of one big thing i've always loved to do; drive home around sunset.
the different colors the sky turns at that time. tonight it was a midnight blue, an azure, a warm vermillion in the distance.
there were tears in my eyes as i pulled into the driveway.
i thought, this is my town, this is my home.
this is who i am. this is who i used to be.
all of the people i loved.
adam. laith. ryan jent. ryan lang. sarah. megan. brittany. zak. michel. sam.
jacob. christen. mike woodard. mike cimeot. joe. lena. sorina. alex. dave.
mike petersen. loran.
all of the places i've been with them, all of the experiences i've felt with them.
i was loved. i was lucky.
who am i now? who have i become?
why do i just hinge on memories for a fleeting moment of happiness?
and then become melancholy when i realize that those people are gone?
i still love all of those people with all of my heart,
and that is why tears are streaming down my face.
this is my anthem for that part of my life, my celebration of a time and place that i will always cherish in my heart.
this is my anthem for the all of the beauty in my life that i never bothered to look at,
never bothered to appreciate until tonight.
and it's so beautiful that i can't help but cry about it.
and i spilled my guts out to him, about what i was really feeling, what had happened to me.
he did the same, and we understood each other.
it was like talking to a kindred spirit.
he made me a mix CD, and this song, anthem, was on it.
on my way home i listened to it on repeat, and i started noticing all of the beauty around me.
the way the outline of the trees looked in front of a dark blue sky,
the way the little orange lights lit up my path home.
the way my legs shook as the small but frequent vibrations from the car hitting the potholes on rotunda moved its way up.
the way my hands moved on the steering wheel, at the helm of this machine that enables me to go places my body cannot take me.
i started to appreciate the little things of one big thing i've always loved to do; drive home around sunset.
the different colors the sky turns at that time. tonight it was a midnight blue, an azure, a warm vermillion in the distance.
there were tears in my eyes as i pulled into the driveway.
i thought, this is my town, this is my home.
this is who i am. this is who i used to be.
all of the people i loved.
adam. laith. ryan jent. ryan lang. sarah. megan. brittany. zak. michel. sam.
jacob. christen. mike woodard. mike cimeot. joe. lena. sorina. alex. dave.
mike petersen. loran.
all of the places i've been with them, all of the experiences i've felt with them.
i was loved. i was lucky.
who am i now? who have i become?
why do i just hinge on memories for a fleeting moment of happiness?
and then become melancholy when i realize that those people are gone?
i still love all of those people with all of my heart,
and that is why tears are streaming down my face.
this is my anthem for that part of my life, my celebration of a time and place that i will always cherish in my heart.
this is my anthem for the all of the beauty in my life that i never bothered to look at,
never bothered to appreciate until tonight.
and it's so beautiful that i can't help but cry about it.