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fate. what is it? why is it? how is it? i don't know what to think, i don't know what to do about it. why did that number appear? why then, and why did the opposite appear for that other answer? if you're not selle this really isn't going to make sense to you at all. spirituality is starting to control my life. the signs are clear but don't tell me what to decide. the butterfly, the plane. material goods don't matter to me. i hate the technological society we live in at this moment. i'm going back to nature. i'm going back to the pure things that made this world beautiful. again, you're not going to understand this whole concept. not yet. i don't have the courage to confront this person about it. i know it's what i'm supposed to do. but i don't want the reaction to be negative. i don't want this person to think i'm the craziest girl they'll ever meet. which may or may not be true. i've found my place. i know who i am now. no more confusion about that, but once i figured out the real me and got all of this frustration off my chest, this happens. for the longest time it's been showing up. since early august. and now the final pieces have come into play = and i know it all. almost. at least.
maybe i should just get it over with. i know it's not going to end well, i know i'll probably chicken out before i get the chance too. everything happened at once, not gradually. but that's what i wanted all along, isn't it?
maybe i should just get it over with. i know it's not going to end well, i know i'll probably chicken out before i get the chance too. everything happened at once, not gradually. but that's what i wanted all along, isn't it?