Well, that really was quite some Revelation!!
The LVG 10th Anniversary Party: I can say many things about last weekend........ pretty much all of them would be complimentary.
I had a FANTASTIC WEEKEND!
It all started well, I met nadriel at Paddington as planned and we headed off to Reading, arriving about 6.45pm. I got into my campus room and Mike went off to the bar while I ate some sandwiches and got dressed up. I went to the bar about 8pm I think, and rejoined Mike and met up with karis_uk and sexygoldfish_uk who were both looking terrific (great hat Becky! I want one!!) They were both a little frazzled from all the work they have had to put in - but it all seemed great to me!
At about 9.30 the most eagerly anticipated person (for me!) arrived.... late and flustered and very apologetic. I give you extinctfables ...... (from this point known as Gideon)
We had agreed to meet up this weekend, having met one another last week at Inferno. I was intrigued (and to be honest quite excited) at this prospect.... but was determined not to let my imagination run away with me - again...
As it happens, I need not have been so worried!! I will cut a very long and soppy story short by saying that we talked and talked and talked... we walked and walked around the campus... we stayed pretty much inseperable for the entire time between 9.30pm Friday and 8.30pm Sunday.... He was perfectly attentive, gentle, caring and considerate. And very generous with his money, considering he doesn't have a lot! He took me to lunch on Saturday. We have laid out our sordid histories for one another and have given each other a good account of what we are like in relationships.... and in a suprise to us both, we are not afraid. People kept commenting at just how goddamned HAPPY we both looked all weekend!!!
He already knows me way too well!! He can very nearly almost read my mind it seems... He knows how I think because it is also how he thinks, knows how I feel because he feels the same way.... This is indeed a hell of a revelation! The hour or two we spent in a churchyard in Reading, lying together in the shade of a huge chestnut tree, having a very very intense conversation indeed (it ought to have been FAR too intense for a couple who have really only just met...) will stay in my memory for a long time... as will the whole weekend. The LVG party was a great success I think. The efforts and pains of Becky and Dave were worth everything. I had a wonderful time. My thanks to them. And Becky and I both survived the entire weekend whilst battling the Reading Vampire Bat Flu / Plague!! It was great experience, the event went really well I think, and I'd love to do it all again....
I have a truly wonderful man in my life again... one who is as mad and silly and emotional and soppy and sentimental as me!! I never knew another one existed!! This is bliss.... and he tells me that he feels happier than he has been in a WAY long time. And I feel the same.... I am thoroughly enjoying being made such a huge fuss of... I feel like the most important person on the planet when he's around!! He will spoil me rotten I'm sure - but I will take immense pleasure in ensuring that it goes both ways!! I hope and pray to any random deities that THIS one will stand up and last the course. We've both had a rough few months (at least) and feel it is about time that we both got something good. This appears to be happening! We are seeing each other again on Friday, for the weekend, and I can't wait to see him!! We text each other several times a day and we have talked on the phone everyday, twice! [We really are most nauseating - sorry guys.... :oD ]
The only fly in the ointment is distance... he lives in Southampton, I live in Essex. Not great. But not insurmountable either. Just extremely annoying!!
I think some time ago I may have mentioned that I had heard something I found to be very true: If you have a huge gaping wound in your heart that needs the care of a proper bandage and anaesthetic, it is of no use to you when all you keep finding is a bunch of Band-Aids.
I think I found my First Aid Kit this weekend.......