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This will fun to do on my droid....
Steeling the thing christina is doing...
Day 1 intorduce self...I'm nick...u should know that by now...and I can't spell...nuff said
Day 2 first love (I wish I could figure out copy cut and paste on this)
It seemed during the nightmare of growing up I forgot how to love or to even feel loved and my idea of love was became off base, it was like more a willingness to tolorate and mabey even like...I remeber saying I love u and knowing I didn't mean it or thinking if I tried harder I could mean it...but it wasn't there. I dated a few guys I almost actualy beleived I loved but what did I know.
Then I met ronnie...who I didn't like at all at first but a mutual friend realy pushed me to go on a adate with him, I guess he wouldn't leave her alone and she thought if I wnt on a adate he would leave her alone about it. We went to see king kong and he started crying, he was so upset wanting to know why they would be so mean to him (king kong) and kill him, and how u could tell he loved the girl. At first being the cold person I am I thought what a tool, and then I realised he had this childlike innocence, it was realy endearing and special to see a grown man with neivity and a heart. He was half deaf and that just made an even bigger warm spot in my heart for him...he was sooo inocent it was cute...I loved him like a lover and also in away as a parent would love their kid. I can't exsplain what it was shareing somemany things I took forgranted with him and seeing him get excited like the world was so new and magical to him...things that I just forgot how special they are because I've seen and done it and hate the world and allways am seeing wprst in it. I guess he gave me back being able to look at the world threw innocent childlike eyes and I don't realy ever remember haveing that in all my life, innocents. He was so cute and sweat and loveing, I never felt loved before in my life, I'm not talking about how a friend love or respect or admiration I mean real pure inocent warm careing fuzzy love...real love and it felt great.
How sad that he quickly became corrupt, and is now a coke head and sleeps around and is now like the people that made me be a pesimist. He started hanging out at marcellas and wanted to impress them...its sad. I realy thought he and I had a future together...but even if I never love like that again atleast I got to know what love was.
I also love Guinness and I truely believe he love me back...love from a dog is also amazeing, its uncondional, u can look like shit and be in a bad mood and all they want to do is be with u and make u happy...its weird with out the stupid things humans use to comunicate love (words, gifts, ceremonys and events) a dog can make u feel loved more then ever. Silly I know.
Steeling the thing christina is doing...
Day 1 intorduce self...I'm nick...u should know that by now...and I can't spell...nuff said
Day 2 first love (I wish I could figure out copy cut and paste on this)
It seemed during the nightmare of growing up I forgot how to love or to even feel loved and my idea of love was became off base, it was like more a willingness to tolorate and mabey even like...I remeber saying I love u and knowing I didn't mean it or thinking if I tried harder I could mean it...but it wasn't there. I dated a few guys I almost actualy beleived I loved but what did I know.
Then I met ronnie...who I didn't like at all at first but a mutual friend realy pushed me to go on a adate with him, I guess he wouldn't leave her alone and she thought if I wnt on a adate he would leave her alone about it. We went to see king kong and he started crying, he was so upset wanting to know why they would be so mean to him (king kong) and kill him, and how u could tell he loved the girl. At first being the cold person I am I thought what a tool, and then I realised he had this childlike innocence, it was realy endearing and special to see a grown man with neivity and a heart. He was half deaf and that just made an even bigger warm spot in my heart for him...he was sooo inocent it was cute...I loved him like a lover and also in away as a parent would love their kid. I can't exsplain what it was shareing somemany things I took forgranted with him and seeing him get excited like the world was so new and magical to him...things that I just forgot how special they are because I've seen and done it and hate the world and allways am seeing wprst in it. I guess he gave me back being able to look at the world threw innocent childlike eyes and I don't realy ever remember haveing that in all my life, innocents. He was so cute and sweat and loveing, I never felt loved before in my life, I'm not talking about how a friend love or respect or admiration I mean real pure inocent warm careing fuzzy love...real love and it felt great.
How sad that he quickly became corrupt, and is now a coke head and sleeps around and is now like the people that made me be a pesimist. He started hanging out at marcellas and wanted to impress them...its sad. I realy thought he and I had a future together...but even if I never love like that again atleast I got to know what love was.
I also love Guinness and I truely believe he love me back...love from a dog is also amazeing, its uncondional, u can look like shit and be in a bad mood and all they want to do is be with u and make u happy...its weird with out the stupid things humans use to comunicate love (words, gifts, ceremonys and events) a dog can make u feel loved more then ever. Silly I know.