I'm BAAAAAAAAAAACK!
I have been hiding in this hole I call my home. Actually, I quit smoking on Tuesday (today is day 3!) and am doing pretty good. I have all this extra energy and feel like I'm going to collapse from the withdrawl symptoms. Let me tell ya, I can name about 50-75 things that don't feel right with me right now. That's a scary, scary thing because I never REALLY understood just what I was doing to my body. My head hurts, I've been nauseaous since I quit, my body aches, my chest hurts, my lungs are screaming at me, my sinuses are stuffed up (but that could be from allergies), I'm exhausted, I am anxiety ridden, I am completely mental, my head hurts (did I already mention that)...but I'm really really tired. But GODDAMNIT I am tired of having my mental and emotional health be chemically dependant.
It's disgusting really. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not preaching to all the smokers out there to quit...god no. What would we have as population control? :) Kidding...sorta. Anywho, all I'm saying is that, for me, I was just tired of how I felt after that first cigarette. But I do miss it, the smell, the taste; not the tightening lungs or the sped up heartrate. I guess I'm just venting because I don't get to have a support group for this. All my friends live out of town and as great as my roommates are, I don't know them very well. (mmm....fresh ginger root tea is good to make my tummy not unhappy...mmm....)
I'm rambling....
OH...I changed majors yesterday to Teledramatic Arts and Technology (TAT). AND I'm the Assistant Costume Designer. WooHoo...I've never done costuming in my life...but here goes nothing! I'm way excited, and I might get 4 units for it. Way excited.
OK, I'm done for now. J.Paul, I'm sorry I've been away from you for so long, but I really did miss you (even if I can't seem to get away from you in the pancho on Disney!..Every FUCKING DAY they show either the movie or a commercial....hahaha.....just had to throw that one in there.) Ok, I've rambled and I'm done.
It's disgusting really. Now, don't get me wrong, I'm not preaching to all the smokers out there to quit...god no. What would we have as population control? :) Kidding...sorta. Anywho, all I'm saying is that, for me, I was just tired of how I felt after that first cigarette. But I do miss it, the smell, the taste; not the tightening lungs or the sped up heartrate. I guess I'm just venting because I don't get to have a support group for this. All my friends live out of town and as great as my roommates are, I don't know them very well. (mmm....fresh ginger root tea is good to make my tummy not unhappy...mmm....)
I'm rambling....
OH...I changed majors yesterday to Teledramatic Arts and Technology (TAT). AND I'm the Assistant Costume Designer. WooHoo...I've never done costuming in my life...but here goes nothing! I'm way excited, and I might get 4 units for it. Way excited.
OK, I'm done for now. J.Paul, I'm sorry I've been away from you for so long, but I really did miss you (even if I can't seem to get away from you in the pancho on Disney!..Every FUCKING DAY they show either the movie or a commercial....hahaha.....just had to throw that one in there.) Ok, I've rambled and I'm done.