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I don't know what is wrong with me. I am always so wore out by the end of the day. My feet hurt like crazy. I'm sure if I wasn't the queen of flip flops and wore some better shoes, that wouldn't be a problem. But I can't help it. I can't pass up a cute pair of flip flops. I relax to watch tv in the evening and it's a struggle to stay awake. Then when it's actually bedtime I lay there and toss and turn hoping I'll just fall asleep but I swear the timer on my tv goes off before I'm asleep.
Tonight I was in one of those moods. I'm tired, I'm cranky and it's just a matter of time before it's that time of the month. Ugh! So I decided to pamper myself for the evening. I bought one of those little soothing foot soak packet things from target. It was so nice. I could totally feel it working on my feet. It came with lotion too. Spearmint scent. My feet smell like double mint gum now. Tomorrow will be the pedicure. I also did one of those face mask things. I went all out. I feel a little better now.
I'm now sitting here alone thinking. Thinking about him. The boy who is my friend but I think I could fall in love with if I'd let myself. But what good would that do? We are friends and it will probably be nothing more than that. Why is it that I always get hung up on the ones who don't want me? All I want is to be loved. Sure I have my friends and family's love but it just isn't the same.
I guess I'm just hopeless.
Tonight I was in one of those moods. I'm tired, I'm cranky and it's just a matter of time before it's that time of the month. Ugh! So I decided to pamper myself for the evening. I bought one of those little soothing foot soak packet things from target. It was so nice. I could totally feel it working on my feet. It came with lotion too. Spearmint scent. My feet smell like double mint gum now. Tomorrow will be the pedicure. I also did one of those face mask things. I went all out. I feel a little better now.
I'm now sitting here alone thinking. Thinking about him. The boy who is my friend but I think I could fall in love with if I'd let myself. But what good would that do? We are friends and it will probably be nothing more than that. Why is it that I always get hung up on the ones who don't want me? All I want is to be loved. Sure I have my friends and family's love but it just isn't the same.
I guess I'm just hopeless.