Followed to the end.... made it out intact
Another heart break, another couple years waisted. What's it matter. Here I am again. Reading back through these... I ask myself why I was so stupid... why when someone actually makes motion towards me I melt. Such bullshit... it's not fair that I have been gifted with a weak heart. I should have known, I should have not gone down this road, not shown up that night. Why was I stupid, why? I'm angry at myself. Gods be dammed... why did I walk the same path. Now I sit here waiting for the agony to grow, consume me. Why leave a heart that is so dedicated out in the open. Insanity is doingthe same thing over and overagain, hoping that things will change... what the hell was I thinking. Love is insanity.