Feeling Bad
I feel really sad right now, and I don't know %100 why.
But I think that these things have to do with them.
First of all, Jen moved away, and it's effecting me A LOT. Like an emptyness...it's a bad feeling.
Second, I feel like I ruined Mike's life. If it weren't for me, he would be living his dream right now, or in NY away from this place that he hates so much, and he always tells me how much he hates it here and how much he hates his job and I really feel like it's all my fault. And I love him so much, it kills to think that I could cause such a screw up. I really hate school, it's so stupid and I dont understand my math class at all. Color Gaurd is really fun, but there is so much pressure on me to learn everything really fast. I've seen better days.. that's for sure.
But I think that these things have to do with them.
First of all, Jen moved away, and it's effecting me A LOT. Like an emptyness...it's a bad feeling.
Second, I feel like I ruined Mike's life. If it weren't for me, he would be living his dream right now, or in NY away from this place that he hates so much, and he always tells me how much he hates it here and how much he hates his job and I really feel like it's all my fault. And I love him so much, it kills to think that I could cause such a screw up. I really hate school, it's so stupid and I dont understand my math class at all. Color Gaurd is really fun, but there is so much pressure on me to learn everything really fast. I've seen better days.. that's for sure.