disappointed
Well, the last time I saw John was thursday last week. We had a great evening together.... things got sexy but for the most part we just talked and enjoyed each others company. The part that bothers me is that I asked him if I would be seeing him over the weekend (thats when I'm off work) and he said yes... well how about fri, sat and sun goes by with no phone call. Sunday night John calls to say hello, fine I thought he would invite me for a movie or something then...but no he says he wants to chill in alone tonight. I had plans with my girls at TUTU Tango anyways so no bother although I was disappointed it seems he doesnt miss me very much right?
I called him back after dinner to see if he changed his mind about company. No answer...leave a message.
I didnt call mon but tried late tuesday to see how things were. No answer, I left him a second voicemail "Hey John, its not like you to not return my calls, get in touch with me when you can.. I would like to see you soon."
No call tuesday night. In a moment of weakness this morning I texted him to ask if he was mad at me for any reason... as of now, still no reply.
I am so disappointed in him.
I hate that I am so weak as to not be able to just write him off and stop caring. I hate that he sends me mixed signals all the time. When we are face to face he cares so much and is so good but the time we are apart its like I have vanished from his mind completly.
I know I deserve better than this... please tell my heart that.
On a side note, I spoke with Rob online last night... he invited me to his place down in tampa for next weekend. It should be relaxing to get away and great to hang out with him again.
I'll let you know how things go afterwards.
I wish John would call or text or something... I refuse to contact him again.
I also have not spoken to or heard from Camillo since last friday...he hasnt even stopped by work. Tried calling him this morning but no answer there either...
I think a month ago all the guys in the world wanted to chat with me, and now...none of them will even answer the phone when I call.
What the heck is up with that?
I spoke with a couple realtors today. I would really like to purchase a town home or condo soon. I hope I can find something in my price range. I have to be very careful with my money situation and start putting funds into a savings account again.
Live dirt poor and sock away that money for a few months at least. I will need all I can get together to be able to become a home owner. That would be a huge prayer answered.
I called him back after dinner to see if he changed his mind about company. No answer...leave a message.
I didnt call mon but tried late tuesday to see how things were. No answer, I left him a second voicemail "Hey John, its not like you to not return my calls, get in touch with me when you can.. I would like to see you soon."
No call tuesday night. In a moment of weakness this morning I texted him to ask if he was mad at me for any reason... as of now, still no reply.
I am so disappointed in him.
I hate that I am so weak as to not be able to just write him off and stop caring. I hate that he sends me mixed signals all the time. When we are face to face he cares so much and is so good but the time we are apart its like I have vanished from his mind completly.
I know I deserve better than this... please tell my heart that.
On a side note, I spoke with Rob online last night... he invited me to his place down in tampa for next weekend. It should be relaxing to get away and great to hang out with him again.
I'll let you know how things go afterwards.
I wish John would call or text or something... I refuse to contact him again.
I also have not spoken to or heard from Camillo since last friday...he hasnt even stopped by work. Tried calling him this morning but no answer there either...
I think a month ago all the guys in the world wanted to chat with me, and now...none of them will even answer the phone when I call.
What the heck is up with that?
I spoke with a couple realtors today. I would really like to purchase a town home or condo soon. I hope I can find something in my price range. I have to be very careful with my money situation and start putting funds into a savings account again.
Live dirt poor and sock away that money for a few months at least. I will need all I can get together to be able to become a home owner. That would be a huge prayer answered.