To those I've hurt by my own self destruction and stupidity
This is mostly addressed to one person, but if there are others, you can take this for yourself as well.
These past seven months have been an out of control rollercoaster of experiences. I have driven away some of the closest people around me because I did not want to hear their reason, logic, or concern. I was wrapped up in myself and was not willing to do something about the mess I was in.
Mama Berck says that I had grown to accept my mom's behavior and so in other relationships I look for the same treatment, for I know what to expect.
That's not an excuse, but perhaps there is truth in it. No matter, I have grown up some and I have gained a bit of self-knowledge and control. I broke up with him today because I finally realized that no matter how many times he turns into his sweet self, the bad things will always come up again. I know I've said this before, but the friends who see the everyday events also know that I am pretty good now, and I know what I want, what I deserve, and what I need. If I do ever get back together with him, it won't be without many changes and some growing up on his part. I don't feel weak, I feel strong.
I have developed a large group of support surrounding me, which has helped me to gain control of my life and emotions. I'm smiling again and I'm feeling good. I'm getting things arranged for my schooling, and for my own life.
I know that I have upset you, angered you, and perhaps driven you past caring now. I hope that this is not the case and that we will talk again soon... I do love you and thank you for putting up with me.\
The Great LiveJournal
Outage of 2005
During the outage I cried because I realized how much my life really sucks.
What did you do?
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These past seven months have been an out of control rollercoaster of experiences. I have driven away some of the closest people around me because I did not want to hear their reason, logic, or concern. I was wrapped up in myself and was not willing to do something about the mess I was in.
Mama Berck says that I had grown to accept my mom's behavior and so in other relationships I look for the same treatment, for I know what to expect.
That's not an excuse, but perhaps there is truth in it. No matter, I have grown up some and I have gained a bit of self-knowledge and control. I broke up with him today because I finally realized that no matter how many times he turns into his sweet self, the bad things will always come up again. I know I've said this before, but the friends who see the everyday events also know that I am pretty good now, and I know what I want, what I deserve, and what I need. If I do ever get back together with him, it won't be without many changes and some growing up on his part. I don't feel weak, I feel strong.
I have developed a large group of support surrounding me, which has helped me to gain control of my life and emotions. I'm smiling again and I'm feeling good. I'm getting things arranged for my schooling, and for my own life.
I know that I have upset you, angered you, and perhaps driven you past caring now. I hope that this is not the case and that we will talk again soon... I do love you and thank you for putting up with me.\
The Great LiveJournal
Outage of 2005
During the outage I cried because I realized how much my life really sucks.
What did you do?
Brought to you by geek-foo