update for puta
So tina is off visiting her peeps in florida and that leaves me alone at work which is never fun. So i thought ill post to keep tina updated on my ever so exciting life while she is gone. Cause i know she misses me even tho she will never admit to it.
So tina...i finally saw juno. It was wicked good i was stoked to finally see ellen page in another movie other than hardcandy...but even with her playing a completely different type of character i still loved her. I went with sam. Which would normally have been like WWE smackdown but oddly enough it was really normal. There wasnt any fighting, no arguing, no smart comments, no bickering or bitterness. We acutally got along. Sam will always be important to me no matter how much I would like to punt her across the room. She randomly told me i was going to be the godfather to her kids which took me by surprise cause shes never told me that before yet she swears she has. I think i would've remembered it. But i guess in a way its cool to think i mean that much to someone that im first in line for being a godparent to whatever kids they pop out when that time comes. We talked alot about whats gonna happen when she goes to london if that happens. Like freindship wise if she will keep in touch with not only me but with her other friends as well. She wants to keep in touch but shes never had that person. A person who can tell if theres something wrong just by hearing her voice or having someone she can talk to about anything and everything. So i told her id be that person for her if she let me and didnt shut me out. So we'll see how that goes. I could get used to having totally normal converstations with her and acutally enjoying spending time with her. Overall the night was totally boss.
Katie- I finally got some balls and just flat out asked her what the deal was. She hates when i say shit along the lines of you really dont have to hang out if you dont want too. She hates when i imply she doesnt want to or is just hanging with me because shes got nothing better to do. So i told her i over think things, i always have, and with transitioning certain areas of my life i overthink a little more. Girls being a huge area where i over think. i told her i get the feeling like she just wantsto be friends with me and just doesnt want to say it. I told her i dont know where im supposed to stand with her because she went from calling me babe one week to barely talking to me the next...i just want to know where im supposed to stand. And she told me she thinks im a really really cool person and that she really does want to hang out with me but right now shes not in a good position too. Im not sure what position she is in but i told her i wasnt looking to get into a relationship with her right now i just want the chance for her to get to know me. And she told me she really does. So i guess im back to sqaure one with her but just less to over think. Im not the type of person to throw myself at a girl...we can take things as slow as she wants. Im not going anywhere. Now im just back to the waiting game of trying to figure out when we can just hang out so we can get to know eachother.
I went to the gym with jade. We realized a few things. 1-i have an irrational fear of the eliptcal machines becasue im terrifed ill fling off because they go so damn fast yet i control how fast they go with my feet yet becasue it lets me go fast i go fast then almost cry hahaha 2-jade can kick my ass in leg strength but i kick her ass in arm strength 3-she cant teach me conditioning shit that she used to do for volleyball becuase apparently i just look stupid doing them making her laugh and unable to yell at me for doing it wrong. Which would probably be the reason when i used to go to the gym to meet guys i used to work with id be left with brian who also didnt think that lifting weights was life or death like the other 2 guys we met up with. 4- You know you're out of shape when the girl that checks you in at night asks if you fell off the face of the earth. Altho she smiles at me alot and always makes a point to talk to me so she might just think im adorable haha 5-its fun running into your cousin on your dads side that doesnt know you exsist yet you do know eachother at the gym. Always majorly awk 6- i cant run for beans. Either i get a huge cramp within a minute, i get shin splits, or my chest starts to hurt. And it sucks cause mack is making me run all the time because of rugby and because im small ill be put in a position where i have to run. I just need to get into that shape where i can. Ive always hated running tho...it bores me...runnin the mile in school was death for me but i didnt suck at it just hated it.
I really do hope mack's team takes her up on the offer to let me play. I guess the new captins are taking forever at getting back to her. I just look forward to being part of a team. I was telling jade at the gym last night that i miss being part of team. A team where you are needed, required to go to practices which keep you in shape, and you can meet and make friends that can last a long time. Oh and the pharmacy are being dicks about my script. My dr didnt write something i guess she should have on the script so the pharmacy called her about it. Then they told me that had it when i called yesterday. But when i got home 2 hours later there was a message on the machine about how they needed to talk to me. So i call...they tell me my insurance wont cover it. Well duh tool bags my insurance doesnt cover anything that has to do with a sex change. Well i didnt say that exactly i just told them i know its not covered and ill pay with my credit card. so she asks if i want to fill it and i say yes she then tells me i can pick it up at 6. I get there at like 6 and she tells me that she cant fill it cause she needs to talk to my dr again. Wtf get your shit together people i want my stuff quit jerkin me around. I guess ill call them again and harass them like my dear ole mom told me to do. Oh and tina im glad you got your bags back..would have sucked to have nothing to wear!