Happy happy joy joy!!!
It's taken me a bit to post because I've been absorbed in my own personal dramas. I've been fighting lately with some inner turmoil surrounding my marriage and I'm not clear as to which side has come out victorious, however my husband and I today are probably closer than we have been in the past two years, something which almost shames me to say. I love him and while we have somewhat settled into our new living arrangements things will never be comfortable living with my family. My brothers are studying pre-outlaw, my mom is still... the same, my Grandpa talks about how he may not make it through the winter, let alone make the trip to Michigan that everyone's been considering, and my great aunt has overtaken my son. I feel somewhat useless sometimes, not to mention all around just not good enough, but hubby has been assuring me this past week that none of it is true... bootlicker. ;P I've had a lot of crying and a lot of thinking to do and I've come to the conclusion that there are few things in life that we worry about that actually need be deemed worry-worthy. Most of what concerns us shouldn't. Bills? Worry about the rent, water, electric and car as is in most situations the necessities. If you're poor, get foodstamps. When you're talking medical bills from hospitals that charge people TWO THOUSAND DOLLARS for a trip a few miles down the road to the hospital, bills for magazines which you haven't ordered, haven't heard of or haven't received issues in years, health insurance that wants you to pay what's overdue when they're cutting you off October 1st either way, then screw it! Screw them all! The things that merit worry should consist of your family, your friends and getting your priorities straight. Asking yourself the questions, "If I do _____ would it really be worth it losing _____ over it?" Or so simply, "How does _____ sound to me, would someone take it the wrong way?" It's the simple things in life we forget to consider before we do or say without thinking and I hope whoever reads this really pays attention, because it's more important then you may think at this time. I just got in contact with a friend of mine whom I met back in 1997 or 1998. I've written her and kept writing because to me, that's what's important. And she forgave me for doing something incredibly stupid (which by the way I'm still sorry for to this day) because that's what was important. Life is too short for all this crap. Grandma spent her last 4th of July angry with my husband and my brothers and because she was so mad she went inside, went to bed and missed the show. That was her LAST 4th of July. What day could be your last? Do you know? The majority of the population of the United States of America is in debt... shoot, America itself is in debt. Is money that more important than the love of family or the strength of a friendship? I think not.