009 broadcast mind-dream

[lilbloodeyes]

For a moment there is nothing but floating. There is little but that flutterly, light sensation. Then you are grounded; you are running, running over grass, into the forest. Everything is moving so quickly, so smoothly. There is barely an effort, no stitch in your side. There is a simple joy, a freedom that comes from running without effort, no

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[antesignano]

Miata...?

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[lilbloodeyes]

[There's a rustling noise. Someone just woke up and grabbed a Forge. Yup.]

Yes?

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[antesignano]

...Are you all right?

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[lilbloodeyes]

'm fine. Just nightmare.

Video.

[supercilious]

Is that what it feels like?

[ Good lord. ]

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[lilbloodeyes]

Might. Never awakened.

[You know you could. Always ask your boss.]

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[supercilious]

[ It's not that he hasn't spoken with Priscilla about this, though it's still a sensitive subject between them, the biggest fight they've ever had. But that's different from the fully-blown surround-sound Broadcast Mind experience. ]

Just a dream, then. You all right?

[lilbloodeyes]

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[Makes a big difference when you're getting a view from afar, and through the person's eyes. Doesn't it? She wouldn't wish it on anyone.]

'm fine.

[video]

[moarnomsplz]

[Ax knows the feeling of the freedom of running, one he has not felt, not truly, since leaving the homeworld. On Earth and in Anatole, there are too many reasons to be wary.

He knows the fear, too. Fear of losing control of one's body, of the form it takes. He has seen Rachel, the toughest human he knows, go through this. It would be impossible not to wonder how he would deal with being allergic to a morph. This is not the same, does not feel the same, but the sense of helplessness, that is very similar.

He does not know if this is a memory or a nightmare. He wishes to offer what comfort he can to Miata in either case.]

Are you all right?

[video]

[lilbloodeyes]

...Am fine. Just dream.

[video | private]

[moarnomsplz]

I have been afraid of losing-ing control over my abilities, too.

[lilbloodeyes]

[video | private]

....Abilities?

video.

[reddenedrage]

...Which is it that you wanna be?

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[lilbloodeyes]

...don't know anymore. Bad things happen if stay, if change.

video.

[reddenedrage]

Yeah, that's... Not a place you wanna be stuck at.

[ He scratches his head idly; this is a little too familiar to be spoken of. ]

But where do you wanna be? Ignore the bad shit. What's the you that you like?

[lilbloodeyes]

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...don't know if like the now.

Want to be better. But not...lose it. Everything.

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[f_eye_candy]

Oh. [That is really all he's got. He's horrified. What even was that.]

video;

[lilbloodeyes]

Mmmmmm. [She isn't going to even try to explain it. Sorry Fai.]

video;

[f_eye_candy]

[He's not sure he wants the explanation sob.] I... whatever that was... [There really are no words for this.] I'm so sorry. Monster kind of world, huh?

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[lilbloodeyes]

And we're monsters too.

[Of course he does. With all the gory details.]