Dear Kame,
Five years ago I made a huge personal and emotional investment, entirely unintentionally, and you have been returning it with inflated interest ever since. Not once have you given me a moment to regret it.
Here’s why.
Your existence in my life is a source of power in the purest, most inexplicable form. When you're happy, I'm happy. When you're generous enough to show your frustrations I feel them too. When you succeed, I'm proud. So proud. I feel for you and I feel with you. And that's why I've been a fan of yours for so long. You are a touchstone. Your jobs, your projects, your appearance-they all change on a regular basis but you are still a constant you. I can strip away everything-from the face, the voice, the excess-and still feel this ever-flowing burst of love because I adore you, the idea of you, your struggles and peculiarities and successes, and all the happiness and memories I associate with you will remain untouched.
You take all the love and expectations and support I've invested in you, roll them up into a neat ball, casually toss them up into the air, and send them flying out of the park. You hit a home run every time. It’s what you do. And I will confess that half of those expectations don't have anything to do with your professional works. They speak to your struggles, with others and yourself, the precarious juggling act your position in the entertainment world requires of you. I can't explain just how fantastically satisfying it is to see you bloom into the confidence you now wear like a second skin. You own it, Kamenashi Kazuya, and that itself if glorious and heartwarming to behold, to the point that I can’t take my eyes off you.
I don't know how it began-whether it was because I saw pieces of myself in you, or because I found you at the right place and time, a time when there was a space in my life that had been looking to be filled, but you've occupied that space for so long now that I don't believe that it was just chance. There is something in you that draws me to you. You're an idol, a singer, an actor, an entertainer in so many ways and I love all that you do, all that you make me feel through you. And I know that it's something you're aware of; that you are adored by thousands is not a secret. But I also hope you know that it's not a false affection. It's not misguided and not all of it is selfish. Everything that you show us and trust us enough to share with us, we treasure. Even when you can't share the whole truth, I love the you who tries to give us everything you can. The you that does so much to please his fans.
And it's not because we are fans that we love everything you do. It's because we love what you do that we are your fans. You are an idol, a businessman in the matter of winning hearts, but you are as real to me as you can possibly be. The person you have revealed yourself to be in little puzzle pieces strewn over the years, I love that person. I admire that person. That person makes me happy and that happiness makes me stronger. That person is Kamenashi Kazuya, the wonderful man you've made him to be, and I look forward to where you will take him this year and the many years to come. Where ever he goes, my support will follow. However high he soars, my heart will soar along.
To the man who won’t stop, who grows and achieves, who is full of surprises. To the you who didn’t know himself, who would ask who am I? and now says, wherever I am, I am me.
Out of all the people in the world, once again I will spend Feb 23 thinking of you. All the joy and strength you've given me, I hope it will be returned to you in multiple folds.
Happy 29th Birthday, Kame.
You are one hell of a man human being and I hope to see you again soon.
This year too, continue to prove me right.
♥
Here’s why.
Your existence in my life is a source of power in the purest, most inexplicable form. When you're happy, I'm happy. When you're generous enough to show your frustrations I feel them too. When you succeed, I'm proud. So proud. I feel for you and I feel with you. And that's why I've been a fan of yours for so long. You are a touchstone. Your jobs, your projects, your appearance-they all change on a regular basis but you are still a constant you. I can strip away everything-from the face, the voice, the excess-and still feel this ever-flowing burst of love because I adore you, the idea of you, your struggles and peculiarities and successes, and all the happiness and memories I associate with you will remain untouched.
You take all the love and expectations and support I've invested in you, roll them up into a neat ball, casually toss them up into the air, and send them flying out of the park. You hit a home run every time. It’s what you do. And I will confess that half of those expectations don't have anything to do with your professional works. They speak to your struggles, with others and yourself, the precarious juggling act your position in the entertainment world requires of you. I can't explain just how fantastically satisfying it is to see you bloom into the confidence you now wear like a second skin. You own it, Kamenashi Kazuya, and that itself if glorious and heartwarming to behold, to the point that I can’t take my eyes off you.
I don't know how it began-whether it was because I saw pieces of myself in you, or because I found you at the right place and time, a time when there was a space in my life that had been looking to be filled, but you've occupied that space for so long now that I don't believe that it was just chance. There is something in you that draws me to you. You're an idol, a singer, an actor, an entertainer in so many ways and I love all that you do, all that you make me feel through you. And I know that it's something you're aware of; that you are adored by thousands is not a secret. But I also hope you know that it's not a false affection. It's not misguided and not all of it is selfish. Everything that you show us and trust us enough to share with us, we treasure. Even when you can't share the whole truth, I love the you who tries to give us everything you can. The you that does so much to please his fans.
And it's not because we are fans that we love everything you do. It's because we love what you do that we are your fans. You are an idol, a businessman in the matter of winning hearts, but you are as real to me as you can possibly be. The person you have revealed yourself to be in little puzzle pieces strewn over the years, I love that person. I admire that person. That person makes me happy and that happiness makes me stronger. That person is Kamenashi Kazuya, the wonderful man you've made him to be, and I look forward to where you will take him this year and the many years to come. Where ever he goes, my support will follow. However high he soars, my heart will soar along.
To the man who won’t stop, who grows and achieves, who is full of surprises. To the you who didn’t know himself, who would ask who am I? and now says, wherever I am, I am me.
Out of all the people in the world, once again I will spend Feb 23 thinking of you. All the joy and strength you've given me, I hope it will be returned to you in multiple folds.
Happy 29th Birthday, Kame.
You are one hell of a man human being and I hope to see you again soon.
This year too, continue to prove me right.
♥