i just don't like it
i just don't like:
feeling used even if i'm not.
feeling left out.
having my hurt feelings turned on me...which only makes me feel worse.
people who flake.
plans falling through.
working 6 days in a row.
waking up 4 minutes before i'm supposed to leave for work.
my unclean bedroom.
the distance i will be in a few months.
that i constantly get interrupted...
and made fun of.
that getting upset about something small means that something greater is bothering me.
pretending. at anything.
being identity-less.
not performing well.
disappointing others.
disappointing myself.
the hot weather.
the holes in my work pants.
the miscommunications.
the movie matchpoint.
feeling lonely.
feeling unloved. or unliked.
worrying about things that are stupid.
not worrying enough about important things.
the mixed emotions regarding change.
not going on vacation this summer.
secrets. expecially unnecessary ones.
the price of college.
the fear of being lonely at college.
crying. especially crying alone.
blowing things out of proportion.
not knowing what the proportion that i'm blowing is.
being told i'm not a good secret keeper.
being told i'm not good at something.
being told i can't accomplish something.
not having belief in me from the people i care about.
caring about people who don't seem to notice.
losing friends.
judmentalness.
uptightness.
rudeness.
the uncertainty of an initial attraction.
throwing things away.
how quickly the last year has flown by.
that it feels like nothing has changed.
how naiive i can be.
feeling used even if i'm not.
feeling left out.
having my hurt feelings turned on me...which only makes me feel worse.
people who flake.
plans falling through.
working 6 days in a row.
waking up 4 minutes before i'm supposed to leave for work.
my unclean bedroom.
the distance i will be in a few months.
that i constantly get interrupted...
and made fun of.
that getting upset about something small means that something greater is bothering me.
pretending. at anything.
being identity-less.
not performing well.
disappointing others.
disappointing myself.
the hot weather.
the holes in my work pants.
the miscommunications.
the movie matchpoint.
feeling lonely.
feeling unloved. or unliked.
worrying about things that are stupid.
not worrying enough about important things.
the mixed emotions regarding change.
not going on vacation this summer.
secrets. expecially unnecessary ones.
the price of college.
the fear of being lonely at college.
crying. especially crying alone.
blowing things out of proportion.
not knowing what the proportion that i'm blowing is.
being told i'm not a good secret keeper.
being told i'm not good at something.
being told i can't accomplish something.
not having belief in me from the people i care about.
caring about people who don't seem to notice.
losing friends.
judmentalness.
uptightness.
rudeness.
the uncertainty of an initial attraction.
throwing things away.
how quickly the last year has flown by.
that it feels like nothing has changed.
how naiive i can be.