Pausing to Reflect
So. 4 years. Gone.
No one can believe it. We all wonder where it went, and if we can replay the events that stick out in our minds. I can believe it; and truthfully, I'm grateful it's here. While a sea change is in store, it's time for a major overhaul. We love each other but we're starting to get a little tired of each other. Don't pretend this isn't happening: you've spent several years of your life around these people, we are all a little tired of one another. We haven't necessarily overstayed our welcomes in our homes but our parents are lusting after the day that we leave. Graduation has come and gone the minute that you spent walking across the stage will forever be burned in your mind, unless you were wasted like the girl in front of me. That is also something that will be burned in my mind. We've spent that last 2 weeks, starting with prom, celebrating our existence, clinging to the idea that our parents will still be 100% behind us in everything we do and hoping that we won't lose touch with the people who have loved us, made us laugh, and inspired us to be who we are. Some of us are going far away, some are going only an hour away. Either way, the last 2 weeks have passed with a surreal pleasure, leaving us slightly uncomfortable at the idea of a drastically different future. A future with different friends, in different homes, in different places. Frankly, it freaks me out. While the idea of starting a new life is very appealing, it's a major step outside most of our comfort zones. And some cannot deal with the idea that everything will be different so they try and stay with what feels good now, which might not feel right later. It's hard to believe that 10 years from now, we'll have careers, possibly spouses and children, bills to pay, huge responsibilities. It's also hard to believe that 10 years ago we couldn't stay up past 8:30 and held our parents' hands whenever we went anywhere. The comforts of 10 years ago are also drastically different. We don't run to our mommies evertime we hurt ourselves, even though you know that sometimes your mommy is the only one who can make you feel better. But above all, we are all frightened and afraid to admit it. Change is a very scary thing. We want the change to happen: we want to grow up. But at the same time, we don't want anything to change. We feel we're finally at a place in our lives where we're comfortable with who we are and are finally assertive, confident, and easy to deal with. It's a big toss up. I think that even though this huge change is about to occur, we won't lose who we are and who we care about. All of the choices that all of us have made are choices that we had been predestined to make, they will lead to true happiness. And while the future is dark, indefinite, and scary, we should embrace it with everything we have and live reach day as if it were our last. I wish everyone the best of luck in whatever they choose to do and, if we unfortunatley lose touch, have a wonderful life filled with the utmost joy and satisfaction.
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No one can believe it. We all wonder where it went, and if we can replay the events that stick out in our minds. I can believe it; and truthfully, I'm grateful it's here. While a sea change is in store, it's time for a major overhaul. We love each other but we're starting to get a little tired of each other. Don't pretend this isn't happening: you've spent several years of your life around these people, we are all a little tired of one another. We haven't necessarily overstayed our welcomes in our homes but our parents are lusting after the day that we leave. Graduation has come and gone the minute that you spent walking across the stage will forever be burned in your mind, unless you were wasted like the girl in front of me. That is also something that will be burned in my mind. We've spent that last 2 weeks, starting with prom, celebrating our existence, clinging to the idea that our parents will still be 100% behind us in everything we do and hoping that we won't lose touch with the people who have loved us, made us laugh, and inspired us to be who we are. Some of us are going far away, some are going only an hour away. Either way, the last 2 weeks have passed with a surreal pleasure, leaving us slightly uncomfortable at the idea of a drastically different future. A future with different friends, in different homes, in different places. Frankly, it freaks me out. While the idea of starting a new life is very appealing, it's a major step outside most of our comfort zones. And some cannot deal with the idea that everything will be different so they try and stay with what feels good now, which might not feel right later. It's hard to believe that 10 years from now, we'll have careers, possibly spouses and children, bills to pay, huge responsibilities. It's also hard to believe that 10 years ago we couldn't stay up past 8:30 and held our parents' hands whenever we went anywhere. The comforts of 10 years ago are also drastically different. We don't run to our mommies evertime we hurt ourselves, even though you know that sometimes your mommy is the only one who can make you feel better. But above all, we are all frightened and afraid to admit it. Change is a very scary thing. We want the change to happen: we want to grow up. But at the same time, we don't want anything to change. We feel we're finally at a place in our lives where we're comfortable with who we are and are finally assertive, confident, and easy to deal with. It's a big toss up. I think that even though this huge change is about to occur, we won't lose who we are and who we care about. All of the choices that all of us have made are choices that we had been predestined to make, they will lead to true happiness. And while the future is dark, indefinite, and scary, we should embrace it with everything we have and live reach day as if it were our last. I wish everyone the best of luck in whatever they choose to do and, if we unfortunatley lose touch, have a wonderful life filled with the utmost joy and satisfaction.
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