It's a new day.
Today I found this livejournal. It's strange, I could've sworn I deleted it long ago.
I feel somewhat disheartened at the things I wrote before. I see multiple accounts of my own immaturity in dealing with certain situations. Not to say that i'm omniscient or mature now, but I can't believe I used to think so negatively. I love life. It's a beautiful gift God has given us. I'm suprised that I wrote that I was turned off to the Lord because of my parents. They really are the ones who have rooted and grounded me in knowing His ways and that gave through to experiencing His love.
I'm going through a couple of hardships right now. I woke up yesterday completely depressed. That is NOT who I am and it made me feel sorry for those who have mental illnesses in which that state of mind is interminable, not just a day or two.
I keep having these crazy dreams.. horrible some of them. But they are all so prophetic.
I don't know why God chose to give these dreams to but it is a burden I must carry.
I keep ignoring the voice of the Lord. I do it intentionally, hopeing He will give in to what I want, but thats not how it works.
It always results in hurt on my part.
I wonder when I will learn?
I'm sorry Lord... I am so far from where I should be.
"Only the pure in heart will enter the kingdom."
The Lord said that to me in one of my dreams.
That thought continues to circle in my mind...
I feel somewhat disheartened at the things I wrote before. I see multiple accounts of my own immaturity in dealing with certain situations. Not to say that i'm omniscient or mature now, but I can't believe I used to think so negatively. I love life. It's a beautiful gift God has given us. I'm suprised that I wrote that I was turned off to the Lord because of my parents. They really are the ones who have rooted and grounded me in knowing His ways and that gave through to experiencing His love.
I'm going through a couple of hardships right now. I woke up yesterday completely depressed. That is NOT who I am and it made me feel sorry for those who have mental illnesses in which that state of mind is interminable, not just a day or two.
I keep having these crazy dreams.. horrible some of them. But they are all so prophetic.
I don't know why God chose to give these dreams to but it is a burden I must carry.
I keep ignoring the voice of the Lord. I do it intentionally, hopeing He will give in to what I want, but thats not how it works.
It always results in hurt on my part.
I wonder when I will learn?
I'm sorry Lord... I am so far from where I should be.
"Only the pure in heart will enter the kingdom."
The Lord said that to me in one of my dreams.
That thought continues to circle in my mind...