I hate love....
thats an oxymoron... you can't hate love... how could someone hate what their heart desperatly needs? I don't know. I think I love her... but I can't tell her... I don't want to push her away. I asked her out, she said not right now. I wish I could tell her how much she means to me. I wish I could tell her how badly I want to be with her. I wish I could let her know how I truely feel. I wish I could kiss her once. I wish I could cuddle up close to her, and whisper "good night baby, I love you, sweet dreams" and fall asleep with her in my arms. I wish I could walk around holding her hand bragging about how awesome she is. I wish I could show everyone how happy she makes me. I wish I could go out for a drive, for hours with her sitting next to me, holding my hand. I wish I could end up on a beach in California, with her standing beside me. Girl, no one has meant this much to me. I think I love you! I wish that people would envy me. Richard... I envy you! you are my best friend.. and I envy you to death, you have an awesome girl.. and an awesome relationship. I kinda wish I were in your shoes! anyways... I think I'm done for the night!!! I'm out!!!