the places u come to fear the most.
so where do we go from here? my life turned upside down exactly a week ago. everything went wrong that day but i thought i would be fine. i was... went the rest of the week finishin up my groundation and then monday came and i was more than happy to get back out and be w/ people.
well.. monday went just peachy.. got up and went to sandy's house. i work w/ her.. and i played w/ her kids and whatnot and then left at like 3. then i went to john's... we were just like old times just a little different but not much. umm.. then, we decided to open up a lil more and we went for a 2 hour walk. lol it was nice!! :) i'm glad we had that talk. it made me understand a lil more w/ whats going on.
tuesday had everything of high hopes. went to work 11-4:30 and then i came home and got ready.. john called and i went to dinner w/ him and his fam. it went well.. came back and helped him paint and whatnot at his house and we just hung out. talked a lil more, than i left at 12. i thought everything was fine again.
today.. man, i really am startin to hate wednesdays! really, they are the worst thing to come my way anymore. everything bad happens on them! today went fine but then my mom called for me to pick her up.. she was drunk supposedly so i did. nothing but yelling at me telling me how horrible i am and it just hurt. i feel like i'm worthless to her and i've had about enough of it. i do everything she asks and more and its still not good enough. talked to john, found out that his mom really didn't approve of us still hanging out everyday and whatnot. well then she wanted to talk to me :0.. yea i was scared.
went to johns.. good chat and everything seems to be fine again.. everything is ok w/ my mom because she is passed out at the moment. yea i just really dont know anymore. i'm confused, i'm lost i need some guidance, but then i just need to do it on my own. my song for the night is dashboard confessional- the places u've come to fear the most. thats me!
well i'm out
well.. monday went just peachy.. got up and went to sandy's house. i work w/ her.. and i played w/ her kids and whatnot and then left at like 3. then i went to john's... we were just like old times just a little different but not much. umm.. then, we decided to open up a lil more and we went for a 2 hour walk. lol it was nice!! :) i'm glad we had that talk. it made me understand a lil more w/ whats going on.
tuesday had everything of high hopes. went to work 11-4:30 and then i came home and got ready.. john called and i went to dinner w/ him and his fam. it went well.. came back and helped him paint and whatnot at his house and we just hung out. talked a lil more, than i left at 12. i thought everything was fine again.
today.. man, i really am startin to hate wednesdays! really, they are the worst thing to come my way anymore. everything bad happens on them! today went fine but then my mom called for me to pick her up.. she was drunk supposedly so i did. nothing but yelling at me telling me how horrible i am and it just hurt. i feel like i'm worthless to her and i've had about enough of it. i do everything she asks and more and its still not good enough. talked to john, found out that his mom really didn't approve of us still hanging out everyday and whatnot. well then she wanted to talk to me :0.. yea i was scared.
went to johns.. good chat and everything seems to be fine again.. everything is ok w/ my mom because she is passed out at the moment. yea i just really dont know anymore. i'm confused, i'm lost i need some guidance, but then i just need to do it on my own. my song for the night is dashboard confessional- the places u've come to fear the most. thats me!
well i'm out