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what am i ever going to do with myself? i can't handle heartbreak... i found that out in this past year.. my sweet 17 has been the WORST ever.. i knew everyone was right when they told me that 17 was a bad year. i've only been it for 2 weeks, and my whole world has turned upside down. :(
i'm sad.. i haven't truly smiled since last sunday. i was w/ the ppl i cared most about. now that i've been home, i've gotten a lot closer w/ my mom.. but lost the one thing i thought was right in my life. i just dont know anymore.. i feel like its me.. like something is totally wrong w/ me. i hate feeling like this too cuz i hate feeling like something is missing. i want to smile again, i want to be happy. maybe after sunday, i'll be alright.. idk i really dont.
a lot of friends have been helping me w/ this situation.. i thank you all so much i would be lost w/o you. its sad to say and i feel like such a loser, but i really can't let go.. at least not for now.. hanging out i'll be fine or i'll try. i'll be distant, but i can at least handle it. i just want things back to the way they were.. when i could wake up and see that he thought i was his everything and i did too.. now all of that is gone. :(
i'm sad everyone.. but i CAN make it on my own.. i have my friends, i have god, i have a family that are all supportive.. it just hurts! i wish i could explain myself but there are not enough pages or time in my life to tell everyone about how i feel. this is it for me.. i'm done updatin for a while..
when i turn happy again.. i'll update again. LiNdS
i'm sad.. i haven't truly smiled since last sunday. i was w/ the ppl i cared most about. now that i've been home, i've gotten a lot closer w/ my mom.. but lost the one thing i thought was right in my life. i just dont know anymore.. i feel like its me.. like something is totally wrong w/ me. i hate feeling like this too cuz i hate feeling like something is missing. i want to smile again, i want to be happy. maybe after sunday, i'll be alright.. idk i really dont.
a lot of friends have been helping me w/ this situation.. i thank you all so much i would be lost w/o you. its sad to say and i feel like such a loser, but i really can't let go.. at least not for now.. hanging out i'll be fine or i'll try. i'll be distant, but i can at least handle it. i just want things back to the way they were.. when i could wake up and see that he thought i was his everything and i did too.. now all of that is gone. :(
i'm sad everyone.. but i CAN make it on my own.. i have my friends, i have god, i have a family that are all supportive.. it just hurts! i wish i could explain myself but there are not enough pages or time in my life to tell everyone about how i feel. this is it for me.. i'm done updatin for a while..
when i turn happy again.. i'll update again. LiNdS