hey this is to everyone..
listen up everyone.. i have some things i want to say.
lately things have been going down hill for me. i knwo this is none of ur problems but it does have things to do w/ how i am now w/ some of my friends. i lost the trust of one of my best friends.. for the stupidest reason ever. i lost a guy.. that wasn't worth it anyways but seemed like one at the time. i fight w/ my mom constantly... and it just seems like nothing can go right.. a lot of this is my own doing. i have been completely dumb about so many things lately that i dont even know whats up w/ me anymore... like saturday.. its not like i needed any friendships cuz they were already friends. i should have stood up for what i knew and NEVER let him come. big mistake. i can't change the past, i can only learn from it. i wanted to see him just to prove to myself once and for all i was better off. idk.. and seeing him changed a lot of things for me. saturday wasn't a smart idea w/ him.. i'm sorry to everyone for that! :( i'm disappointed in myself more than any of you but yet i still cannot change what has happened but only make things better for the future.. another thing is.. that lindsay.. we promised each other at the beginning of the year nothing could fall apart between us this time... i had A LOT to do w/ why things have.. u seem so distant lately.. and i dont mean this as a plea of sympathy but i truly miss hanging out w/ u all the time.. like i said ur like my other half. i'm done w/ everything.. i know i've said this before.. today ended things completely for me. i want to be a new person. i'm done being me cuz me isn't working anymore. i try to please everyone and i end up gettin screwed in the end. i have to learn to think for myself and do as i want and stop tryin to have everyone else happy. i've thought soo much on this stuff for like 2 weeks and it seems all that i am is depressed. nothing makes me happy and like i said this is my own doing. i miss things, i wish something had never happened. i'm working on a better future. to get everyone of my good friends back to where we were but me.. being different. i've done some things i'm not proud of.. i'm learning and from that i'm going to make mistakes. but if u guys are all the true friends i hope and think u are.. u will help me along the way and not leave me deserted.. cuz thats kinda how i feel lately. that everyone is just soo pissed off at me or in their own world to not talk to me. idk its like ur annoyed and just talk to me to be nice.. i dont want to feel like this anymore.. its not anyone's fault i'm just tryin to change things for me.. so i'm out leave a comment if u like.. pfund
lately things have been going down hill for me. i knwo this is none of ur problems but it does have things to do w/ how i am now w/ some of my friends. i lost the trust of one of my best friends.. for the stupidest reason ever. i lost a guy.. that wasn't worth it anyways but seemed like one at the time. i fight w/ my mom constantly... and it just seems like nothing can go right.. a lot of this is my own doing. i have been completely dumb about so many things lately that i dont even know whats up w/ me anymore... like saturday.. its not like i needed any friendships cuz they were already friends. i should have stood up for what i knew and NEVER let him come. big mistake. i can't change the past, i can only learn from it. i wanted to see him just to prove to myself once and for all i was better off. idk.. and seeing him changed a lot of things for me. saturday wasn't a smart idea w/ him.. i'm sorry to everyone for that! :( i'm disappointed in myself more than any of you but yet i still cannot change what has happened but only make things better for the future.. another thing is.. that lindsay.. we promised each other at the beginning of the year nothing could fall apart between us this time... i had A LOT to do w/ why things have.. u seem so distant lately.. and i dont mean this as a plea of sympathy but i truly miss hanging out w/ u all the time.. like i said ur like my other half. i'm done w/ everything.. i know i've said this before.. today ended things completely for me. i want to be a new person. i'm done being me cuz me isn't working anymore. i try to please everyone and i end up gettin screwed in the end. i have to learn to think for myself and do as i want and stop tryin to have everyone else happy. i've thought soo much on this stuff for like 2 weeks and it seems all that i am is depressed. nothing makes me happy and like i said this is my own doing. i miss things, i wish something had never happened. i'm working on a better future. to get everyone of my good friends back to where we were but me.. being different. i've done some things i'm not proud of.. i'm learning and from that i'm going to make mistakes. but if u guys are all the true friends i hope and think u are.. u will help me along the way and not leave me deserted.. cuz thats kinda how i feel lately. that everyone is just soo pissed off at me or in their own world to not talk to me. idk its like ur annoyed and just talk to me to be nice.. i dont want to feel like this anymore.. its not anyone's fault i'm just tryin to change things for me.. so i'm out leave a comment if u like.. pfund