what time away can do
i have been in the toughest of situations lately. i love a girl so much, more than love could ever be defined. she breaks all my rules, whether i like it or not she does. i wish so much that i could be broken of this thought that controls me. she has always had my thoughts, and now more than ever are they filled with her. all these thoughts of what is going to happen next. we both have such a strong side that says to never let go, you will be losing more than life. we also have the side that says maybe our differences are not compatible with one another. which one will be chosen? it no longer becomes about just staying together, it hits a whole new level. this is where we will decide if we are each other's one. it will decide if i will ever be given to another, or if i can remain with the one whom i love so much. i love her so very much. i would give anything for her, to make her happy, just to see her smile and gaze into the look in her eyes when she does so. i love her eyes of heaven blue. they always show me love, passion, happiness, and beauty. she is beautiful, so beautiful, and just as much so on the inside. i love when i have to figure her out, how i cant always do that, how she can change so easy, how she can expresses so much with the smallest of words. her kiss is so intrancing, it makes you never want to stop, i cannot find an end to it. it always seems like the first time every time we kiss. that thrill of love, emotions. it gets me every time. every hug comes with joy from her, a hug to mend any problem, a hug to reasure any good fortune. i do not want to leave all this, this which has become my waking drive everyday. my sorce of happiness, and the best kiss i have ever touched with such lips. just letting things flow thrugh my head and writting them down. i cant stand to lose her, but i cant become trapped into something where i dont belong. i love you so much, i want this to work so i will never go a day without knowing i can kiss you, never go a day when i cant hold your hand, never go a day where i cant look into such perfect eyes and say i love you.