When he stopped and looked at me, I could tell he was telling the truth...it was Angel, he wasn't and wouldn't lie to me about this stuff, and through his huge speech, that I didn't want to understand, but did...I realized that we had really all grown apart, and things changed...no matter how rapid they were.
A part of me just wanted to go back to my graduation day and chase after him when I watched him disappear into the smoke, and things never to be the same again.
Something would have happened, and things happen for a reason, it's just the reasons that were involved were a pain in the ever loving ass.
it's not like supernatural things didn't happen with me, I mean, I died and had sex with an evil vampire, so it wasn't like I could hate Angel for doing the same thing...I didn't have to like it, but it wasn't that hard to comprehend.
I didn't regain eye contact with Angel after this for quite some time. I just wanted to stare down, knowing that he was in front of me, ready to help out with whatever came our way... I didn't want to think about the things that were in the cracks of the sidewalk, or god, even look at the big picture. Fragments were good. Fragments were very of the good.
"I can't believe how things have changed, Angel. It's surreal. We could fill 5 nights with each others stories, but I can honestly say I think you win with the supernatural."
I looked at her, watching her take everything that I had just said in. And there was plenty for her to absorb - try the past two years or so. Sighing, I was ready for the questions that I knew would come sooner or later.
She stared at the ground, and I knew she was thinking hard about all that had been said. Finally, after a long moment she didn't look at me, but she did speak.
"I can't believe how things have changed, Angel. It's surreal. We could fill 5 nights with each others stories, but I can honestly say I think you win with the supernatural."
Change. Damn right things had changed plenty.
"They have. You've changed, I've changed.. And I know there's plenty of stories that we could share with each other to say exactly how we've changed. Believe me, at the time, I couldn't exactly believe it at first. It was.. well, supernatural."
In a way, I was thankful for the changes that I'd been through at least. I wouldn't be who I was here possibly even be here.
"Despite the changes, there are still some things that never change." I said quietly.
With that said, I followed her gaze to the ground.
I looked up at him when he said that. I knew exactly what he meant, because I was feeling the same way...
Supernatural, sun or no sun. I'd never stop feeling for him, loving him. I always covered it up when he left, but some people, mainly Riley and Spike knew it all along. Deep down I did too.
"They will never change, either, Angel. You can trust me on that."
I grabbed his hand and leaned against him as I started to walk. They never have changed...just got eluded.
Everything he said to me was setting in, and I didn't really get it, but I guess it was one of those situations that say you had to be there.
Dancing around the subject wasn't normally my choice of activities, but in this particular situation and..setting, it was the right thing to do. we had more things to worry about, and I'd like to live through it so we could..talk, and do that five nights talking about our stories.
And we would, because we were together, and we were stronger together.
"They will never change, either, Angel. You can trust me on that."
I looked again at her when she spoke. Without saying anything, she just took my hand and leaned against me as we started walking again. Who knew that things would work out the way they have.
We continued walking towards the graveyard, but I couldn't get the fact that we were walking together, hand holding there. Even after I'd just told her all about Connor and most all that went along with it. It wasn't exactly the best subject to talk about with anyone, much less with her.
After walking for a little while longer, we finally made it to the graveyard. Looking around, I didn't exactly see anything that would show that vampires were still around, but that didn't mean that there weren't.
"Do you think they're still here or decided to go off and play somewhere else?"
"Do you think they're still here or decided to go off and play somewhere else?"
Dammit, maybe they were hiding....But from the look on Angel's face, I didn't think he could smell them, and as much as I hated to see him doing that freaky smell thing, it was pertinent in this situation.
"So you can't smell any extra undead around here? Like can you block out the dead, and decipher the...not-so-dead dead?"
Yes, we were in need of some Buffy logic here. The kind of logic that makes a situation either worse or more confusing.
"Okay, a town doesn't pop up and all of a sudden have a clean cut graveyard. There's gotta be something here. Anything evil, because the world doesn't work this way. Graveyards are the place where vampires lurk, and are...born for that matter, so there's gotta be something here because I don't think I can take another dead end tonight."
This was just becoming...stupid. Finding nothing when we had found an entire town. Things should have been clear as day, and yet, they were confusing as hell. This was hell.
All hell, except for the sense of comfort and love I was receiving and giving to Angel, who was still holding my hand.
I started looking around, anything, God, even another slime demon....well one that has answers would be nice.
A part of me just wanted to go back to my graduation day and chase after him when I watched him disappear into the smoke, and things never to be the same again.
Something would have happened, and things happen for a reason, it's just the reasons that were involved were a pain in the ever loving ass.
it's not like supernatural things didn't happen with me, I mean, I died and had sex with an evil vampire, so it wasn't like I could hate Angel for doing the same thing...I didn't have to like it, but it wasn't that hard to comprehend.
I didn't regain eye contact with Angel after this for quite some time. I just wanted to stare down, knowing that he was in front of me, ready to help out with whatever came our way... I didn't want to think about the things that were in the cracks of the sidewalk, or god, even look at the big picture. Fragments were good. Fragments were very of the good.
"I can't believe how things have changed, Angel. It's surreal. We could fill 5 nights with each others stories, but I can honestly say I think you win with the supernatural."
Pun.
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She stared at the ground, and I knew she was thinking hard about all that had been said. Finally, after a long moment she didn't look at me, but she did speak.
"I can't believe how things have changed, Angel. It's surreal. We could fill 5 nights with each others stories, but I can honestly say I think you win with the supernatural."
Change. Damn right things had changed plenty.
"They have. You've changed, I've changed.. And I know there's plenty of stories that we could share with each other to say exactly how we've changed. Believe me, at the time, I couldn't exactly believe it at first. It was.. well, supernatural."
In a way, I was thankful for the changes that I'd been through at least. I wouldn't be who I was here possibly even be here.
"Despite the changes, there are still some things that never change." I said quietly.
With that said, I followed her gaze to the ground.
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Supernatural, sun or no sun. I'd never stop feeling for him, loving him. I always covered it up when he left, but some people, mainly Riley and Spike knew it all along. Deep down I did too.
"They will never change, either, Angel. You can trust me on that."
I grabbed his hand and leaned against him as I started to walk. They never have changed...just got eluded.
Everything he said to me was setting in, and I didn't really get it, but I guess it was one of those situations that say you had to be there.
Dancing around the subject wasn't normally my choice of activities, but in this particular situation and..setting, it was the right thing to do. we had more things to worry about, and I'd like to live through it so we could..talk, and do that five nights talking about our stories.
And we would, because we were together, and we were stronger together.
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I looked again at her when she spoke. Without saying anything, she just took my hand and leaned against me as we started walking again. Who knew that things would work out the way they have.
We continued walking towards the graveyard, but I couldn't get the fact that we were walking together, hand holding there. Even after I'd just told her all about Connor and most all that went along with it. It wasn't exactly the best subject to talk about with anyone, much less with her.
After walking for a little while longer, we finally made it to the graveyard. Looking around, I didn't exactly see anything that would show that vampires were still around, but that didn't mean that there weren't.
"Do you think they're still here or decided to go off and play somewhere else?"
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Dammit, maybe they were hiding....But from the look on Angel's face, I didn't think he could smell them, and as much as I hated to see him doing that freaky smell thing, it was pertinent in this situation.
"So you can't smell any extra undead around here? Like can you block out the dead, and decipher the...not-so-dead dead?"
Yes, we were in need of some Buffy logic here. The kind of logic that makes a situation either worse or more confusing.
"Okay, a town doesn't pop up and all of a sudden have a clean cut graveyard. There's gotta be something here. Anything evil, because the world doesn't work this way. Graveyards are the place where vampires lurk, and are...born for that matter, so there's gotta be something here because I don't think I can take another dead end tonight."
This was just becoming...stupid. Finding nothing when we had found an entire town. Things should have been clear as day, and yet, they were confusing as hell. This was hell.
All hell, except for the sense of comfort and love I was receiving and giving to Angel, who was still holding my hand.
I started looking around, anything, God, even another slime demon....well one that has answers would be nice.
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