feelings hurt :( :(
I hate dealing with all this crap that I have to go through!!! Where I live there is always DRAMA DRAMA!!! They are people that I know and this one girl that I can't stand is starting a rumor that I said when her daughter was just a baby that she wanted to commit suicide and take her baby with her!!! Now come on I would NEVER EVER SAY ANYTHING LIKE THAT FIRST OF ALL!!!!! This girl has said some faulse accusations and which were never true and I rather not go into it! What is wrong with girl she has confronted me on it before and I told her it was never true!! I hate her I hate her she is not cool!! Where I live can be agongy and I deal with it...........................
I have some family things going on one of my grandpa's has asbestos in his lung that he's had about 25yrs... Now my other grandpa has either altimers<----can't spell the word but it's close hehe... or he has demisa and again can't spell that either... I worry so much about my family on my husbands side my father in laws brother which I geuss is my uncle had a heart attack and is in critical condition that was the last we heard....
I would like to make ammends to all the people that I have hurt and this goes to sandalfon I read your journal and I would like to say a few things to you... I would like to talk to you about everything and I am so sorry for how I have treated you in the past I would like to be friends with you again... I feel so bad how I treated you and again I am so sorry:(
Here's something that I would like to say..
^^^^^^ What If^^^^^^
What if I could change what I have done to my body?? My answer would be no, I am accepting the way I am I am a beautiful person.. I love my scars they are beautiful if anyone is not cool about that that is your problem they may look scary but it is what I have done to my body and I still have a hard time dealing with them like wearing a swim suit and everyone looks at them.. Some parents when they see there children they pull them away.. And you know what that is ok they have every right.. I LOVE MYSELF AND MY SCARS ITS A PART OF ME! :)
What if I could change the way my life took a turn growing up?? My answer again would be no, what I had to go through in my life was hard. I am a sexual abuse survivor and other things:( I am a real strong person"I TRY" I would never ever change that about me at all... I have more of an understanding of people and I try to do my best of helping them.. I have a loving family who has helped me during my hard times and I love them for that..
What if I never exsited?? Well there would be sadness I was named after my dads sister who died of S.I.D.S Her name has meaning and I will take on the tradition... There would be no one that is unique as me and only me..
Well that really somes up what is going with me I want to move on with my life and I am and I am happy:)