what will become
I really don't know what I'm going to do. I see my life crumbling down around me, and I am trapt. If I can't pull myself out this time..... then I don't think I'll make it. I will lose everything. I'll lose my car. I'll lose everything I can built with my family. They have stuck it out for me since August, and I have done nothing but let them down repeatedly, and I can't do that again. If I must bear the sight of my mother's tears on my account...... it would kill me. To be labeled a dissapointment......So I guess dying alone isn't my only fear. But I guess they kinda go hand in hand.
I NEED A JOB
All my hope was put in a job that I had in the bag. I was just waiting on the results of my drug test. I wasn't taking any chances, so I bought one of those drinks that floods your system. Well, I found out last wednesday that I failed it with THC..... I DON'T SMOKE POT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It makes me wonder what my place is.... Where am I supposed to be. Because I refuse to fill a spot on the street as a bumb. I'm sooo burnt out. I'm so tired..... I'm tired of dealing, I'm tired of doing, I'm tired of lying, I'm tired of failing, I'm tired of being me. I want the old me back.
I NEED A JOB
All my hope was put in a job that I had in the bag. I was just waiting on the results of my drug test. I wasn't taking any chances, so I bought one of those drinks that floods your system. Well, I found out last wednesday that I failed it with THC..... I DON'T SMOKE POT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
It makes me wonder what my place is.... Where am I supposed to be. Because I refuse to fill a spot on the street as a bumb. I'm sooo burnt out. I'm so tired..... I'm tired of dealing, I'm tired of doing, I'm tired of lying, I'm tired of failing, I'm tired of being me. I want the old me back.