nynuk- do you remember?
it's suprising how everyone has so much to say on this... all the time. the only way i ever have a lot to say is if i do some survey or weird shit like that. and it isn't because im lame and have nothing going on or anything, its just that i don't feel like saying anything. but today i will type it all out because i have to have some mean man poke at my skin in a few minutes and im up for a little stress relief.
Monday: state. not as awesome as last year. no buck :/. hung out with myra, which was much MUCH needed. walked around and got lost because people refused to listen, but hey...whatever, right? rode home and did everything i could NOT to study. talked to rod more on that bus than i had all year, which was 5 minutes. talked to hannah and raul and people i guess i needed to get to know. Took a test on hannahs phone and learned that travis doesn't like me much...oh well?
Tuesday: german exam, boring. hung around the house, tanned a little. talked to travis and raul on the phone and did those quizilla things to find out what kinds of girls we were. i was the rich snobby one and travis and raul were sexy. i guess it's right? i don't know. i have no idea what kind of person i am.
Wednesday: went up to the hs to meet up with travis for lunch. went with raul, allie, will, amy, and travis up to lugis. travis and i walked because there wasn't room in allies car. it was hella hot. HELLA HOTT. but it was okay, until travis put on a whole can of axe. it kinda got irritating. then i went home and slept while my boyfriend went to his ex's house. i don't know, should i not be okay with him spending a lot of time with her? should i be not okay with the fact that he seems to have more time for other people than me? i don't know, i guess im ignoring it so i don't get upset. oh well, i don't want to think about it. later, around 5, travis came over and we watched "bridget jone's diary: beyong reason". it was kind of okay. It made me really irratated because she did every, EVERYTHING, i hope i never do in a relationship. it was so horrble. then travis went home because he was tired and blah blah, what ever.
Today: i have to go to east feild and pray they accept me so i can graduate. then right after that i have to do to the derm. office so they can sit and tell me what i already know, "you have horrible skin", then give me medication to make everything worse and me even more emotional. i don't like this. why can't i have perfect skin? if im gonna ask stupid questions, why can't i be perfect in general? i ask my self that more than anyone should. i have such a fucked up self image. it's very unhealthy. im never happy with how i look. i never eat enough, work out, tan, bleach my teeth, im just not happy with it. i should see someone about it, but i don't feel like it. i guess it's really obvious that my way of fixing my problems is to just ignore them and hope they go away. i guess that's bad, but whatever.
Friday: hannah cates party
Saterday: hopefully TSI test
Sunday: church
the rest of the summer: go crazy thinking of what i try and ignore.
Monday: state. not as awesome as last year. no buck :/. hung out with myra, which was much MUCH needed. walked around and got lost because people refused to listen, but hey...whatever, right? rode home and did everything i could NOT to study. talked to rod more on that bus than i had all year, which was 5 minutes. talked to hannah and raul and people i guess i needed to get to know. Took a test on hannahs phone and learned that travis doesn't like me much...oh well?
Tuesday: german exam, boring. hung around the house, tanned a little. talked to travis and raul on the phone and did those quizilla things to find out what kinds of girls we were. i was the rich snobby one and travis and raul were sexy. i guess it's right? i don't know. i have no idea what kind of person i am.
Wednesday: went up to the hs to meet up with travis for lunch. went with raul, allie, will, amy, and travis up to lugis. travis and i walked because there wasn't room in allies car. it was hella hot. HELLA HOTT. but it was okay, until travis put on a whole can of axe. it kinda got irritating. then i went home and slept while my boyfriend went to his ex's house. i don't know, should i not be okay with him spending a lot of time with her? should i be not okay with the fact that he seems to have more time for other people than me? i don't know, i guess im ignoring it so i don't get upset. oh well, i don't want to think about it. later, around 5, travis came over and we watched "bridget jone's diary: beyong reason". it was kind of okay. It made me really irratated because she did every, EVERYTHING, i hope i never do in a relationship. it was so horrble. then travis went home because he was tired and blah blah, what ever.
Today: i have to go to east feild and pray they accept me so i can graduate. then right after that i have to do to the derm. office so they can sit and tell me what i already know, "you have horrible skin", then give me medication to make everything worse and me even more emotional. i don't like this. why can't i have perfect skin? if im gonna ask stupid questions, why can't i be perfect in general? i ask my self that more than anyone should. i have such a fucked up self image. it's very unhealthy. im never happy with how i look. i never eat enough, work out, tan, bleach my teeth, im just not happy with it. i should see someone about it, but i don't feel like it. i guess it's really obvious that my way of fixing my problems is to just ignore them and hope they go away. i guess that's bad, but whatever.
Friday: hannah cates party
Saterday: hopefully TSI test
Sunday: church
the rest of the summer: go crazy thinking of what i try and ignore.