God who'd wanna be such an asshole?

[scomparire]

I had no interests. I had no interest in anything. I had no idea how I was going to escape. At least the others had some taste for life. They seemed to understand something that I didn't understand, Maybe I was lacking. It was possible. I often felt inferior. I just wanted to get away from them. But there was no place to go. Suicide? Jesus Christ, just more work. I felt like sleeping for five years but they wouldn't let me.

So there I was, at Chelsey High, still in the R.O.T.C., still with my boils. That always reminded me of how fucked up I was. -Henry Chinaski (Charles Bukowski)