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Here's a little piece of advice to everyone out there about relationships. This includes, but is not necessarily limited to, romantic relationships. If someone works a stressful job, especially a stressful job that they don't really like, and especially especially a stressful job that they don't really like and they've had a particularly bad day and you know it- please please please give them some time before you dump problems on them. 15 minutes or a half hour or so should do it, but even though it doesn't seem like much time its absolutely crucial. Just trust me on this one.
School starts next week. I'm both excited and worried. Unlike last semester, I'm taking a lot of interesting classes (Partial Differential Equations and Number Theory- woohoo!!! No I'm not being sarcastic those are really my classes this semester and I'm really looking forward to them). But then there's always the work involved.... bleh. Also as of late I've been reading some books about various very intelligent people in the realms of math and science, and I can't help but feel inferior and.... well worthless. Most of my life I've been the smart guy in math- even if there were people that did better than me I always knew that I still had an edge on them, but they just put forth A LOT more effort. I had a better general understanding and I picked things up quicker. But now that I've gotten into college the competition is a little more fierce- though I've still been doing very well. I still can honestly say, call it cocky or not, that I'm better at this that all of my classmates thus far, with only one exception. But its that one exception, and the many genius types that I read about, that is making something very clear to me- though I have a significant amount of ability, I think I'm just one step down from being someone who really will contribute to things. I have almost enough talent, but not quite and there's nothing I can do to change that. My mind is simply not enough. I keep wanting to fight this and say "well, robbie, what if you starting working much much harder on this stuff? You don't really know what your potential is because the truth is you've never really put your full amount of effort into any of your math work?" I never had to put 100% in, and because unfortunately up till now all I've been concerned about is grades, I would do enough for an A (or just a B in high school) and stop right there. So I keep hoping maybe I can surprise myself... but deep down I know that I'm never quite going to be really good enough. The main thing I'm noticing is that these guys I'm reading about- almost every single one of them was figuring out something brand new and unheard of..... WHEN THEY WERE MY AGE! Almost every mathematician type peaks in his early twenties. That's where I am- and I still haven't even learned enough to understand what they did, much less come up with something important myself. And what's more, there have been almost no significant contributions by almost any mathematicians after the age of 30. 30!?!? That means I have less than nine years to master this stuff and come up with something important or its not going to happen at all. Frankly I don't see that happening. All I can do now is start to really try my best and learn what I can.
time for bed- here's a quote to think about....er something:
"So get out of my way- I don't have the patience for people that don't think that I'm the greatest!" - Yield.
School starts next week. I'm both excited and worried. Unlike last semester, I'm taking a lot of interesting classes (Partial Differential Equations and Number Theory- woohoo!!! No I'm not being sarcastic those are really my classes this semester and I'm really looking forward to them). But then there's always the work involved.... bleh. Also as of late I've been reading some books about various very intelligent people in the realms of math and science, and I can't help but feel inferior and.... well worthless. Most of my life I've been the smart guy in math- even if there were people that did better than me I always knew that I still had an edge on them, but they just put forth A LOT more effort. I had a better general understanding and I picked things up quicker. But now that I've gotten into college the competition is a little more fierce- though I've still been doing very well. I still can honestly say, call it cocky or not, that I'm better at this that all of my classmates thus far, with only one exception. But its that one exception, and the many genius types that I read about, that is making something very clear to me- though I have a significant amount of ability, I think I'm just one step down from being someone who really will contribute to things. I have almost enough talent, but not quite and there's nothing I can do to change that. My mind is simply not enough. I keep wanting to fight this and say "well, robbie, what if you starting working much much harder on this stuff? You don't really know what your potential is because the truth is you've never really put your full amount of effort into any of your math work?" I never had to put 100% in, and because unfortunately up till now all I've been concerned about is grades, I would do enough for an A (or just a B in high school) and stop right there. So I keep hoping maybe I can surprise myself... but deep down I know that I'm never quite going to be really good enough. The main thing I'm noticing is that these guys I'm reading about- almost every single one of them was figuring out something brand new and unheard of..... WHEN THEY WERE MY AGE! Almost every mathematician type peaks in his early twenties. That's where I am- and I still haven't even learned enough to understand what they did, much less come up with something important myself. And what's more, there have been almost no significant contributions by almost any mathematicians after the age of 30. 30!?!? That means I have less than nine years to master this stuff and come up with something important or its not going to happen at all. Frankly I don't see that happening. All I can do now is start to really try my best and learn what I can.
time for bed- here's a quote to think about....er something:
"So get out of my way- I don't have the patience for people that don't think that I'm the greatest!" - Yield.