(singing) And I think to myself.... what a wonderful wife
So Wednesday and Thursday were some of the most difficult days I've had in a while now. I was sick with the whole allergies thing, I had to work 3-11 on wednesday night and 6:30-3 on Thursday morning. I also had class Wednesday morning and Thursday evening. I had five things due on Thursday (a paper for my math writing class, three accouting things, and a take home test from my computer science class). I had already done the writing paper and one of the accouting things, so I was down to three things that I had to do on Wednesday. Well, I was also completely exhausted. I mean completely- like I could barely keep my eyes open. But I didn't really have time to stop, and I didn't have time to sleep much either. After class wednesday morning I decided I would take a nap before work and then try after work to get all of the homework done. When Charity came home on her break and saw me sleeping she was very very sweet to me- she even laid down with me for a while. Even though I was half asleep the entire time, it still was undescribably helpful of her just to hang around me for a little. The same thing happened in the evening after work. I ended up doing two of my three assignments (the accounting ones) that evening, and rather than go to bed she slept on the couch in the living room where I was working until I was done. I don't even know how to describe how great that was. It was like, that loneliness that I get when I'm bombarded with work that I have to complete myself- it was completely gone. Even though there was nothing she could do to help me specifically and lighten the workload, just being there was such a wonderful gesture. It made the whole thing worth doing. I'm willing to work very hard- but when I feel lonely it doesn't seem to be worth it. However, when I know that it is not just me who depends on my hard work, but others, it becomes more worthwhile. Whether or not I like my job, I'll stick it out because it is my responsibility to care for my wife and future kids. The same goes for school- even though its tough doing both at the same time this is I think the best way to support charity now and charity + kids later. The long days are much more worth it than they would be if it was just me by myself. And Charity really is everything I could want in a wife. Its amazing how God works to bring things together. The more I think about it, the more perfectly planned Charity and I's relationship was (and no, I don't mean planned by us- planned by God). From my point of view, she came along at the absolute perfect time. Things with school and work were just beginning to get really difficult. Who knows what would have happened if I didn't have some sort of motivation to keep going? I certainly wouldn't have done as welll at work. And I remember many many many many many nights before I met Charity that schoolwork suffered because I was too busy being depressed that I was lonely. Now, that's never an issue. Essentially, the amount of work I have to do is much easier because I have someone there to share it with- if not physically, then at least emotionally. I wouldn't presume to say anything about what a "blessing" I've been in Charity's life, but I certainly hope that's the case, and I think if you talk to her she will confirm it. I love my wife!