I took a chance, I took a shot, you might think I'm bulletproof but I'm not
010 THINGS I WISH I COULD SAY TO TEN DIFFERENT PEOPLE RIGHT NOW.
001. I'm not mad at you. I'm just mad at the way you handled this and I feel lied to, even if you think you were doing the right thing for whatever reason.
002. I miss you so much. I'm hoping beyond hope that this works out for the best, but I'm so scared I've lost you already.
003. Please make this easier. It will help us.
004. Please stop being so angry. It will help us.
005. Stop smoking weed. It makes me really, really angry. I'm worried for you but I know you'll just brush me off so I stay silent.
006. You're a nice enough person, but I reallyyy don't want to date you. At all. Stop looking at me like a wounded puppy.
007. Be good to him. Make him happier than anything. He deserves it.
008. Come home from the zoo! I'm lonely.
009. You're being stupid about your girlfriend. You'll break up anyway, because neither of you want to do distance so why drag it out? One minute you don't know if you want to be with her, and the next you can't imagine being without.
010. Get your act together. You have college to think about.
009 THINGS ABOUT MYSELF.
001. I'm overly obsessed with my hair, my appearance. I weigh myself a lot, probably too much, and I don't think I'm pretty.
002. I will give you everything I can, if you let me.
003. I don't hate anyone except for Jess Micallef because she is the anti-Christ.
004. Lately I don't sleep well and eating food as well as not eating food makes me want to vomit. Sometimes it happens.
005. My life is spinning out of control. These are not things I would normally say, but I can't handle it. I need help, I need help so badly.
006. I like to write but I always reread what I write and hate it.
007. I'm really smart, but I know that's not what guys necessarily look for and I'm tired of being the smart girl.
008. I'm also tired of being "one of the guys."
009. I just want to sleep and not feel everything I'm feeling. I'm so tired.
008 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART.
001. Hold me tightly and never let go.
002. Smile, make jokes, be friendly.
003. Be attractive. I'm sorry, I'm shallow.
004. Like my friends and my family.
005. Give me epic hugs.
006. Let me take care of you. Take care of me.
007. Talk about what's bothering you and make me do the same. Sometimes I need to be pushed.
008. Put up with my TV shows I love :)
007 THINGS THAT CROSS MY MIND A LOT.
001. My jaw is killing meee where are my painkillers?
002. What do they think when they look at me?
003. Do I look gross today?
004. I have great hair.
005. I love my friends.
006. Where's my phone?
007. This would make a good ringtone.
006 THINGS I DO BEFORE I FALL ASLEEP.
001. Brush my teeth
002. Talk on AIM
003. Check Facebook/email
004. Talk to Jen
005. Set my alarm
006. Think
005 PEOPLE WHO MEAN A LOT.
001. Home friends: Roseanna, Jillian, Ben, Brian, Ryan, Nick, Alli, Courtney, etc.
002. MC friends: Jessica, Julianne, Danny, Nathaniel, Kerry, Ali, Katie Wirth, Kate, Annie, etc.
003. Fricking Joe Cipolla.
004. My family: mommy, daddy, Matt, Jen.
005. Myself.
004 THINGS I'M WEARING RIGHT NOW.
001. Jean shorts
002. Gray tank and white tshirt
003. Manhattan sweatshirt
004. socks
003 SONGS I LISTEN TO OFTEN. (according to itunes)
I only have four albums right now...
001. The City and the Ghost, Bedlight for Blue Eyes
002. Facing Up, Kate Voegele
003. Tell Me Why, Taylor Swift
002 THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE.
001. Go to Costa Rica
002. Give everything I have to give
001 CONFESSION.
001. Nick is completely right. We try to make ourselves sound quirky so we'll be interesting. But we are interesting. I think so at least.
My summer sucks. The hits keep on coming and I'm sick of it. I want to sleep away everything that I'm feeling and I can't. I can't.
My mom is so angry all the time and I feel like I'm walking on eggshells. If I say something about my dad that isn't negative, I feel like I'm hurting her. In the past two weeks, I've probably seen my dad for about three or four hours. He dropped Matt off today and then talked to mommy for a few minutes about something and didn't even say goodbye or how's it going or anything. He just said hi.
Both my grandma and my aunt are getting hospice care right now. My uncle fell off a ladder and was literally so close to dying.
Food has become a problem. I know that's not what anyone wants to hear, but it's true. Sometimes I don't eat and just looking at food makes me feel sick. Sometimes I eat it and I feel sicker. Medically, I am aware that I'm at a healthy weight but in my head I'm not. I'm stressed and feel like throwing up all the time. I'm tired all the time.
I hate complaining about this, or talking about it even, because people struggle to find the right thing to say and there is no right thing. It is just the way things are right now, no matter how much I hate it. But I'm drowning, I'm drowning so badly. My life is the same four albums on repeat and I can't stop. Sometimes I don't want to.
Rantrantrantrantrantrantrant.
In the end, I'll be okay. I know I will be. I will look back on all this and say that it made me stronger and a better person. But right now, I'm not okay and right now I'm having a hard time getting back up.
001. I'm not mad at you. I'm just mad at the way you handled this and I feel lied to, even if you think you were doing the right thing for whatever reason.
002. I miss you so much. I'm hoping beyond hope that this works out for the best, but I'm so scared I've lost you already.
003. Please make this easier. It will help us.
004. Please stop being so angry. It will help us.
005. Stop smoking weed. It makes me really, really angry. I'm worried for you but I know you'll just brush me off so I stay silent.
006. You're a nice enough person, but I reallyyy don't want to date you. At all. Stop looking at me like a wounded puppy.
007. Be good to him. Make him happier than anything. He deserves it.
008. Come home from the zoo! I'm lonely.
009. You're being stupid about your girlfriend. You'll break up anyway, because neither of you want to do distance so why drag it out? One minute you don't know if you want to be with her, and the next you can't imagine being without.
010. Get your act together. You have college to think about.
009 THINGS ABOUT MYSELF.
001. I'm overly obsessed with my hair, my appearance. I weigh myself a lot, probably too much, and I don't think I'm pretty.
002. I will give you everything I can, if you let me.
003. I don't hate anyone except for Jess Micallef because she is the anti-Christ.
004. Lately I don't sleep well and eating food as well as not eating food makes me want to vomit. Sometimes it happens.
005. My life is spinning out of control. These are not things I would normally say, but I can't handle it. I need help, I need help so badly.
006. I like to write but I always reread what I write and hate it.
007. I'm really smart, but I know that's not what guys necessarily look for and I'm tired of being the smart girl.
008. I'm also tired of being "one of the guys."
009. I just want to sleep and not feel everything I'm feeling. I'm so tired.
008 WAYS TO WIN MY HEART.
001. Hold me tightly and never let go.
002. Smile, make jokes, be friendly.
003. Be attractive. I'm sorry, I'm shallow.
004. Like my friends and my family.
005. Give me epic hugs.
006. Let me take care of you. Take care of me.
007. Talk about what's bothering you and make me do the same. Sometimes I need to be pushed.
008. Put up with my TV shows I love :)
007 THINGS THAT CROSS MY MIND A LOT.
001. My jaw is killing meee where are my painkillers?
002. What do they think when they look at me?
003. Do I look gross today?
004. I have great hair.
005. I love my friends.
006. Where's my phone?
007. This would make a good ringtone.
006 THINGS I DO BEFORE I FALL ASLEEP.
001. Brush my teeth
002. Talk on AIM
003. Check Facebook/email
004. Talk to Jen
005. Set my alarm
006. Think
005 PEOPLE WHO MEAN A LOT.
001. Home friends: Roseanna, Jillian, Ben, Brian, Ryan, Nick, Alli, Courtney, etc.
002. MC friends: Jessica, Julianne, Danny, Nathaniel, Kerry, Ali, Katie Wirth, Kate, Annie, etc.
003. Fricking Joe Cipolla.
004. My family: mommy, daddy, Matt, Jen.
005. Myself.
004 THINGS I'M WEARING RIGHT NOW.
001. Jean shorts
002. Gray tank and white tshirt
003. Manhattan sweatshirt
004. socks
003 SONGS I LISTEN TO OFTEN. (according to itunes)
I only have four albums right now...
001. The City and the Ghost, Bedlight for Blue Eyes
002. Facing Up, Kate Voegele
003. Tell Me Why, Taylor Swift
002 THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE.
001. Go to Costa Rica
002. Give everything I have to give
001 CONFESSION.
001. Nick is completely right. We try to make ourselves sound quirky so we'll be interesting. But we are interesting. I think so at least.
My summer sucks. The hits keep on coming and I'm sick of it. I want to sleep away everything that I'm feeling and I can't. I can't.
My mom is so angry all the time and I feel like I'm walking on eggshells. If I say something about my dad that isn't negative, I feel like I'm hurting her. In the past two weeks, I've probably seen my dad for about three or four hours. He dropped Matt off today and then talked to mommy for a few minutes about something and didn't even say goodbye or how's it going or anything. He just said hi.
Both my grandma and my aunt are getting hospice care right now. My uncle fell off a ladder and was literally so close to dying.
Food has become a problem. I know that's not what anyone wants to hear, but it's true. Sometimes I don't eat and just looking at food makes me feel sick. Sometimes I eat it and I feel sicker. Medically, I am aware that I'm at a healthy weight but in my head I'm not. I'm stressed and feel like throwing up all the time. I'm tired all the time.
I hate complaining about this, or talking about it even, because people struggle to find the right thing to say and there is no right thing. It is just the way things are right now, no matter how much I hate it. But I'm drowning, I'm drowning so badly. My life is the same four albums on repeat and I can't stop. Sometimes I don't want to.
Rantrantrantrantrantrantrant.
In the end, I'll be okay. I know I will be. I will look back on all this and say that it made me stronger and a better person. But right now, I'm not okay and right now I'm having a hard time getting back up.