Toast flys on vacuum cleaners.
Uh, I dunno. I have a headache. I started thinking about poo again and I dunno. I just feel like there is no point to some stuff again.
(Insert song about sucky times here)
The Ataris: Angry Nerd Rock
Time to burn it all away, time to think of what to say
Time to go right back to yesterday.
Time for movements in the past, time for something that won't last.
Not just fire quick and die off fast.
Things are never what they seem,
I'm stuck inside of someone else's dream.
Problems never go away...
I'm sick of being caught in yesterday.
Every day it's still the same, different faces, different names,
But still stuck here playing these stupid games.
Maybe soon I'll figure out what giving up is all about.
My heart is filled so full of doubt.
Don't turn around, don't look ahead
I won't listen to all the lies I'm fed.
Don't have to listen to you
So don't you fucking tell me what to do.
(continuation of regular journal entry)
So today I tried to get a cell phone but since I have no credit history they wanted 500 dollars down, and I was like fuck that. So I went a blew a bunch of money on clothes. I got a mighty mouse shirt, and a julianna theory shirt, and a nofx shirt, and a love bites shirt, and purple shirt, and some jeans, and a shirt that says talk nerdy to me, and uhmmm i dunno, and i got pop and i gave my mom money cuz she needed some and I gave james and ben gas money cuz they always drive me places, I also owe jenna some gas money, and we bought dinner and blah. I'm just pissin my money away. LoL, but anyhoo... Uhm, Yeah... I dunno.
About the whole me feelin un-good thing... I dunno. Its like I had no self-esteem to begin with, but like, I was talking to ben and he pretty much explained to me how he manipulated me by telling me what I wanted to hear about my family and talking about things I was interested in for hours on end and he said that he knows how I work and knows just what to say to get what he wants from me. And then jessica came up to shots and he was like see watch and he started talkin to her about all this stuff and then he was like, would you ever have sex with me and she was like, oh probably, and then he started flirting with me all majorly bad and stuff and like sitting on me and petting me and I stood up to take a shot playing pool and I turn around and he is locking lips with jessica. I was like ok what the fuck dood. But yeah, i dunno, my non-existant self esteem disintigrated pretty fast. I poooooooo. :) K, anyways... bye bye.
(Insert song about sucky times here)
The Ataris: Angry Nerd Rock
Time to burn it all away, time to think of what to say
Time to go right back to yesterday.
Time for movements in the past, time for something that won't last.
Not just fire quick and die off fast.
Things are never what they seem,
I'm stuck inside of someone else's dream.
Problems never go away...
I'm sick of being caught in yesterday.
Every day it's still the same, different faces, different names,
But still stuck here playing these stupid games.
Maybe soon I'll figure out what giving up is all about.
My heart is filled so full of doubt.
Don't turn around, don't look ahead
I won't listen to all the lies I'm fed.
Don't have to listen to you
So don't you fucking tell me what to do.
(continuation of regular journal entry)
So today I tried to get a cell phone but since I have no credit history they wanted 500 dollars down, and I was like fuck that. So I went a blew a bunch of money on clothes. I got a mighty mouse shirt, and a julianna theory shirt, and a nofx shirt, and a love bites shirt, and purple shirt, and some jeans, and a shirt that says talk nerdy to me, and uhmmm i dunno, and i got pop and i gave my mom money cuz she needed some and I gave james and ben gas money cuz they always drive me places, I also owe jenna some gas money, and we bought dinner and blah. I'm just pissin my money away. LoL, but anyhoo... Uhm, Yeah... I dunno.
About the whole me feelin un-good thing... I dunno. Its like I had no self-esteem to begin with, but like, I was talking to ben and he pretty much explained to me how he manipulated me by telling me what I wanted to hear about my family and talking about things I was interested in for hours on end and he said that he knows how I work and knows just what to say to get what he wants from me. And then jessica came up to shots and he was like see watch and he started talkin to her about all this stuff and then he was like, would you ever have sex with me and she was like, oh probably, and then he started flirting with me all majorly bad and stuff and like sitting on me and petting me and I stood up to take a shot playing pool and I turn around and he is locking lips with jessica. I was like ok what the fuck dood. But yeah, i dunno, my non-existant self esteem disintigrated pretty fast. I poooooooo. :) K, anyways... bye bye.