Pity Party
Today has been an absolute riot. I've been holding off from letting the day get me down. Took a few time outs at work today, but got hit with a 1-2 punch once I got home. I just collapsed and let my frustration out.
The day started with the leak returning in the living room from my shower. As it is the beginning of the reporting period I was a busy little bee...which I'd rather enjoy if it wasn't for all the immediate requests. It's amazing how everyone needs a fire put out at the time when I am the most busy. Found out some interesting news about the health of the contract....but I am not going to speculate here about any of it. The day ends with the sitter telling me that there is an infestation of ants in the dining room and kitchen. God, on the first nice day they waste NO time!!! She did as mush as she could to kill them and I've just been monitoring until I can get an exterminator in. I put cinnamon by the back door to keep them out, however, I don't think they are coming from there. I think they are coming from the dining room, but not sure from where exactly. There is only one window and...I'm just not sure. Also, my taxes have been on my mind as well. Thought I could do them myself like I usually do, but this year with Sid and the house and an unexpected 401K withdraw it's getting kinda hairy. Fuckity Fuck.
While I had a great time in New York with a friend, it just made me realize that he'll never be Sid and he's not really what I need right now. Another friend is going out with his girlfriend tonight since she's been in a funk and again, I just realize that another birthday is here and no one to take me out of my funk. I mean, I do it, I will get through. This is just a bad day...I tried to air out my soul by blasting the music with the windows down and the sunroof open. I did do a good job in psyching myself out...taking in the warmth and squinting in the sun. But damn, can I not be able for a day and let someone else take care of me and all these little nagging issues?
I know, I know....I'm thankful that I have the house that has the leaks and the ants. I'm thankful that I have the job with it's quirks. I am thankful that I am alive to see another birthday even if I will be alone. It's just one of those days and I just need the little pity party with myself.
The day started with the leak returning in the living room from my shower. As it is the beginning of the reporting period I was a busy little bee...which I'd rather enjoy if it wasn't for all the immediate requests. It's amazing how everyone needs a fire put out at the time when I am the most busy. Found out some interesting news about the health of the contract....but I am not going to speculate here about any of it. The day ends with the sitter telling me that there is an infestation of ants in the dining room and kitchen. God, on the first nice day they waste NO time!!! She did as mush as she could to kill them and I've just been monitoring until I can get an exterminator in. I put cinnamon by the back door to keep them out, however, I don't think they are coming from there. I think they are coming from the dining room, but not sure from where exactly. There is only one window and...I'm just not sure. Also, my taxes have been on my mind as well. Thought I could do them myself like I usually do, but this year with Sid and the house and an unexpected 401K withdraw it's getting kinda hairy. Fuckity Fuck.
While I had a great time in New York with a friend, it just made me realize that he'll never be Sid and he's not really what I need right now. Another friend is going out with his girlfriend tonight since she's been in a funk and again, I just realize that another birthday is here and no one to take me out of my funk. I mean, I do it, I will get through. This is just a bad day...I tried to air out my soul by blasting the music with the windows down and the sunroof open. I did do a good job in psyching myself out...taking in the warmth and squinting in the sun. But damn, can I not be able for a day and let someone else take care of me and all these little nagging issues?
I know, I know....I'm thankful that I have the house that has the leaks and the ants. I'm thankful that I have the job with it's quirks. I am thankful that I am alive to see another birthday even if I will be alone. It's just one of those days and I just need the little pity party with myself.