It's poetry time!
Yesssss. Finally! I have been meaning to post some of the poems I wrote during this last semester (horrible, by the way). When you lose interest in class there's nothing better than writing...or checking out the hot classmate in front of you. Calculus became such a horrible class that it not only allowed me to write, it allowed me to doodle, take pictures with my cellphone and send random text messages to people. Some of them including "Please shoot me", "What have I done to deserve this?", among other self-pity themed ones. XD Anyway, I got to write poems about not understanding what the hell the professor was saying, rants about things I hate, people I have loved and life experiences. I'm not a good writer, but whatever, I do it for the sake of letting it all out. Here's one of them. It was born during Calculus II class.
Sorry
How many times do I have do say it?
How many times until you believe me?
I've said it more times than I can count,
But I don't think you are listening...I'm sorry.
I know insecurities got the best of me.
I know they clouded my mind.
They like to play tricks on me.
Especially when I'm vulnerable...I hate them!
I shouldn't have said those horrible things.
I hate myself every time I remember saying them.
It's too late now, but I still hope
That someday you will forgive me...listen to me.
It wasn't the best way to do it.
It wasn't the appropiate time either.
It was one thing I couldn't control.
I felt there was no other way...oh how I regret it.
You said you were just busy.
I thought you was just being indifferent.
Now it seems it was a bit of both.
Still, I'm not completely sure...it was confusing.
The screenshot is still on my mind.
The screen name is still on my list.
It doesn't flash orange anymore.
It doesn't even show you are away...are you alive?
We had nothin to give...and still we gave it all.
Did you really think it would have worked?
I didn't think so...until it was over.
I still wonder...what if?
It's been over a year and your face still haunts me.
Is there anything I can do to stop it?
If there's something please let me know...I'm waiting.
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October 7, 2005
1:15 p.m.
P.S.: All you bitches who read but never reply at least reply to this post so I know I'm not posting in vain. If you don't... you'll die of ass rot! =P