Nov 01, 2007 00:00
So, I might have a fuckbuddy here soon. Or Jank in ghetto girl termioligy.
Its a foolish thing to do, but maybe it will boost my self confidence a bit, I mean I always look for a relationship and given I can get one from this guy I will, but hey, beggers cant be coosers.
His name is Jamie, 24, sweet guy with a country accent, you wouldnt know by looking at the guy
In the end you know I will get hurt, we all do. I mean its really just a self destructive thing to do, but maybe it will deter my thoughts from Kyle.
I hate that we can never be friends, I dream of his touch or him in general, I would give anything for him to just talk to me again, I just want to kiss him. God, I miss not being a single guy, relationships make me happy.
People here are bullshit. I just..gah. Im considering going on a date with someone 10 yrs older than me. A daddy I suppose. H eseems sweet, I just dont know what Im doing anymore.
Self destructive decisions here I come!