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It seems like in order to been seen or heard, I must have something to stand out... or even blend in with the others. I have nothing. I got invited to an ex best friends baby shower (I grew up with the girl... babes til 16) who I haven't seen in years. She won't really be interested but I'll have to talk to her family who I grew to be a part of... what do I say? Hannah has the whole being engadged thing to brag about, mom can talk about her mission trips and her new ways of life, and then when it's my turn... I'm stuck. I wish I could be like "oh yeah I'm getting married (when really it'll hopefully be within the next 20 years)" or "I'm a bit preggers just like you!" It's always been a competition between us and she always had to one-up me on everything. I sound a bit harsh but I am not trying to take away her time to shine. In church too! Hillary had a babes a few weeks ago and it's the cutest little musher of my life, Sarah and Joe with their little girl Noel who is like my best friend,Hannah's getting married, Judy blah stoops woman is getting married finally, Matt and Dee have their new babes, Julia wants a baby and her and Nick will probs be engadged soon.... Emmy?! Who's that? She has nothing going on! Yes I am madly in love and happy but peeps doubt it. Yes I am going to New York... but that's only a temporary thing you know? I am greatful for everything good right now in my life.... I just want one thing! I decided today that maybe I should just tell peeps that I never want babies, then I'll stick out because they will know I'm lying. I think I'll say that so then I'll be "the girl with no babies ever". Oh what bullshit that is too... everyone knows that I have never wanted anything more in life then to be a mom. However with my luck I won't be able to have kids. Something will be wrong with me or with Vasili and it won't be possible. Yeah I'm jumping the gun with baby talk but I don't care.
Back to the ex best friend... I need to come up with SOMETHING! Like I have accomplished a lot since I've seen her last... maybe I'll tell her that I have traveled around the world in 79 days or something.
Back to the ex best friend... I need to come up with SOMETHING! Like I have accomplished a lot since I've seen her last... maybe I'll tell her that I have traveled around the world in 79 days or something.