i hate my life sometimes
so today didn't start off very well at ALL for me. i was LIVID for a good three hours! i found out through a co-worker (monica) that i had more people complaining about me to my boss (donna). one thing that i was told on about was the fact that i shut the espresso machine off at 8:30 on tuesday. now this is bad because we would still have a whole hour to make drinks, costing the store money. i was especially pissed because donna didn't say anything to me, but talked to monica about it. monica said that thats not very likely, but i don't know who's side donna is swaying to, monica's or the "customer" who works in the mall who said "i come down every night at 8:30 and they turned it off."
first of all, thats bullshit because the EARLIEST i would ever turn the machine off would be 5 minutes before we closed if we didn't have any customers. secondly, get your facts straight because it was on pretty much before we closed. i had another customer complain that i was on my cell while i was helping a customer. that one i can believe, because i was on the cell after i made the transaction with one customer around 9:00 or so. so i could get crap for that and take it.
but i wondered why i am the only one getting complaints to the manager the day after. so i was asking monica who told me of all these incidents. she said that donna's got spies. this i know, but why are they targeting me? i kept talking to monica about this and asked "does she think i'm slipping or something?" and monica said yeah, and thats why donna wants to work with me more often then she usually does. that right there pissed me off because i have been doing the same to my knowledge as everyone else has who works there. i mean, why does she point her finger at me rather than everyone else?
so, for the first 3 or 4 hours of work i was pissed off and didn't want communicate with people, so i stood behind the espresso bar. i eventually got in a more chipper mood and went about the rest of my day. it still pissed me off about the whole situation, but i didn't let it fester for the remaining few hours of work.
i think, and i'm sure it will happen, donna and i will talk about these issues. i find it bullshit that i am being targeted for being a bad employee. most of the people i help like me and are pleased with the outcome of our short time together.
i believe that this whole thing started around february, when my life was out of sorts with personal issues and my grandpa being in the hospital. i admit that i was not myself for a little bit, but i didn't think it impacted me THAT much. donna spoke to me and asked if everything was ok with me. i didn't know what she was talking about, but apparently my co-workers noticed something wrong too. i love how if this was the case, nobody said anything to me about it. i mean, if i sensed a problem with someone, i'd try to find out what was wrong, not to be nosy, but because i care about my friends. but i tend to believe that this was not the case. maybe ONE of my co-workers noticed a difference. but this is donna we are talking about. she's rarely satisfied with any closing job. no matter how perfect you think it is. she'll find something.
i would really like to talk to her about this issue. am i being dishonest? is it that she doesn't trust me? and if so, did i do something wrong to merit distrust? i'd like to find out. because it makes me feel like shit and pisses me off when i hear of such things as me being lied about by "customers" and fingering me out of the crowd to be spied on.
the rest of the day was much better. after i got off work, me and max were gunna go to the driving range to practice before we go play golf tomorrow. turns out the place closes at 10. tomorrow starts the closing at 11. bullshit! so instead we went bowling. it was fun. i won 2/3 games. go me! then we came back. max went home and i went to anna's. we both watched The Notebook. great movie! i've only seen about half of it before because i had to leave for work. i'll admit it. i did have a tear at one point or another. such a good story.
now i'm home. what a stressful day!!!
first of all, thats bullshit because the EARLIEST i would ever turn the machine off would be 5 minutes before we closed if we didn't have any customers. secondly, get your facts straight because it was on pretty much before we closed. i had another customer complain that i was on my cell while i was helping a customer. that one i can believe, because i was on the cell after i made the transaction with one customer around 9:00 or so. so i could get crap for that and take it.
but i wondered why i am the only one getting complaints to the manager the day after. so i was asking monica who told me of all these incidents. she said that donna's got spies. this i know, but why are they targeting me? i kept talking to monica about this and asked "does she think i'm slipping or something?" and monica said yeah, and thats why donna wants to work with me more often then she usually does. that right there pissed me off because i have been doing the same to my knowledge as everyone else has who works there. i mean, why does she point her finger at me rather than everyone else?
so, for the first 3 or 4 hours of work i was pissed off and didn't want communicate with people, so i stood behind the espresso bar. i eventually got in a more chipper mood and went about the rest of my day. it still pissed me off about the whole situation, but i didn't let it fester for the remaining few hours of work.
i think, and i'm sure it will happen, donna and i will talk about these issues. i find it bullshit that i am being targeted for being a bad employee. most of the people i help like me and are pleased with the outcome of our short time together.
i believe that this whole thing started around february, when my life was out of sorts with personal issues and my grandpa being in the hospital. i admit that i was not myself for a little bit, but i didn't think it impacted me THAT much. donna spoke to me and asked if everything was ok with me. i didn't know what she was talking about, but apparently my co-workers noticed something wrong too. i love how if this was the case, nobody said anything to me about it. i mean, if i sensed a problem with someone, i'd try to find out what was wrong, not to be nosy, but because i care about my friends. but i tend to believe that this was not the case. maybe ONE of my co-workers noticed a difference. but this is donna we are talking about. she's rarely satisfied with any closing job. no matter how perfect you think it is. she'll find something.
i would really like to talk to her about this issue. am i being dishonest? is it that she doesn't trust me? and if so, did i do something wrong to merit distrust? i'd like to find out. because it makes me feel like shit and pisses me off when i hear of such things as me being lied about by "customers" and fingering me out of the crowd to be spied on.
the rest of the day was much better. after i got off work, me and max were gunna go to the driving range to practice before we go play golf tomorrow. turns out the place closes at 10. tomorrow starts the closing at 11. bullshit! so instead we went bowling. it was fun. i won 2/3 games. go me! then we came back. max went home and i went to anna's. we both watched The Notebook. great movie! i've only seen about half of it before because i had to leave for work. i'll admit it. i did have a tear at one point or another. such a good story.
now i'm home. what a stressful day!!!