hmm...

[scifichicx]

WARNING
The following journal entry consists of Lina using her LJ as a means to vent. It is not a fun recount of the days events or a kinky fun fanfic. It is also a very different kind of venting then that which I normally have.

Yup, that's right kiddies, Lina is LJing about romance.

Comments

[genius_mind]

Here's what I think. My two coins, for what they're worth. I don't know you as well as I'd like to, but I'd like to think I know you a bit. I'm glad to have you as a friend in my life. I do wonder sometimes what that life would be like without you. I don't like it. So we won't go there. That said...

I don't even remember what I told you when you first told me about him. I think it was "yay," or "congratulations," maybe "go for it!" I'm happy for you. If you like him, if you like spending time with him, then do it. Like Buffy said, tomorrow, you may be dead. I hope, when I come out to Cali, you're still with him. Then, I can meet him, and tell him how f******g lucky he is to have you in his life. Which I'm sure he knows. Thing is, you're a beautiful person, inside and out.

[scifichicx]

You were cool about it. I remember you being enthusiastic for me. Which was nice. :) I always try to live the best of today with the thought for for tomorrow. Which is what I'm going to try and do. Thank you.

[genius_mind]

You probably won't believe me, but you are a big influence in my life. It's because of some of the things we've talked about that I try to live a better life. You have said things, about like how both of us should live for tomorrow and realize that even though things have happened, we survive. You cheer me when I need it. I can only hope I do the same for you.

Mwah.

Glad you aren't some random girl

[karatestereo]

For the fucking record I am NOT in love with him just cause I really like him. I am not looking up wedding plans because we have the most amazing chemistry. I'm not pitching my heart(s) in full force when he makes me smile like I'm a princess. I'm not going to be stupid even though he manages to make me feel amazing in a way no one has before.

But you know what? Even if you were doing those things, it would be cool. That is how cool love and getting to know someone and figuring it all out is.

You are right. You're a 'Lina. You know how to guard your heart, and you've learned that it is something necessary. And if your intuition right now is telling you to go slow and play things safe, then honouring that is awesome.

I know this is hard to believe, but I am finding out that he is just as amazed to have found me as I am to have found him.

Shiny! That is how Diana and I feel for each other still each day after three years. :)

In conclusion, my 'Lina' advice is this: Don't forget about your innate magic. It will help to guide you

Re: Glad you aren't some random girl

[scifichicx]

You know what, thank you. It is ok for me to throw my heart in if I want to. And when I feel that the potential consequences are worth the emotional magic and the amazing possibilities that we have, I will do that. I do have my own intuitions and I have been following them. I need to remember that my own intuition, if I look at it truthfully, will tell me more than anyone else's. That was awesome advice. Thank you.

*big hug*

[sir_snarksalot]

Heh, I'm always the last one to hear about things. But still, congrats! Honestly, I don't know if I'd have had the guts to go for it so I gotta give you major props on that account. And if he doesn't know how lucky he is, I'll be sure to smack him for ya. ;)

[scifichicx]

There isn't too much to tell. We have barely started and still people were jumping on my back. Thus the ranting. I wouldn't even call him my boyfriend yet, you know? He's a guy I'm seeing that might become something more. If we hit any actual status I'll do the whole telling people thing. Lol. Though Catie insists he's my boyfriend. But how can he be my boyfriend if she already is. XD. How are your drummers?

[sir_snarksalot]

Well still, at least you're putting yourself back out there. And hey, it's always good to have 2 boyfriends. ;)

My drummers are good. I've got a talented crop and I actually need to hold another set of auditions because I got some more drums. I spent most of the night writing music for them to play. Thnks Fr Th Mmrs and Glamorous. Huzzah for modern music!

[51st_century]

For whatever it's worth, I'm happy for you guys. You're kind of adorable, actually.

Thanks again for talking to me the other night, btw.

[quinn_merrick]

Well, I for one think he sounds "Fantastic"

But what'd I know, right?