I'm alive
I want this dark cloud to leave me for good. It's been looming over me since the beginning of December. To be honest, for most of the Christmas break I've been in almost a depressed state and it has everything to so with school. I know it's unhealthy but based on the amount of effort, thoughts and time i spend on it, a great majority of my self esteem comes from school. This makes academic disappointments very hard on me and pushes me into a state that's really hard to get out of. So I'm trying my best to distract my self from these disappointments and move on. I'm through with feeling deep loneliness and regret in my heart, it's time for change. And my birthday celebration really helped, it turned out a lot better than I hoped. I just have to thank God for that, and I will keep striving for more good times.