today was awesome .... untill i got home :/
well today andy came over, twas much fun, mostly just played van helsing (which we found some problems with so i will prolly return it tomorrow) and we whent swimming and stuff... had loads of fun since we havent realy talked huch in a while :( then we whent to actualy see the movie van helsing and i thougfht it was quite awesome.. being that i cant critisize a movie very eaasily
then i got home... took a shower... and after being online for prolly half an hr nobody had imed me ;(( so then im like... why doesnt anyone im me anymore?!?!? and amy told me it was all because i play swg!!!! the whole idea of playing swg was to give me something to do while i had nobody online to talk to. but i gues it bacame a lil more than that. i realy hate it though, i dont want ppl to think i cant talk or wont talk... i always respond unless im not there. so i havent played swg at all today (unless you count the 5 mins i played while andy was here lol then realized there was nothing exciting ot show him so i loged off) i gues it realy has consumed my life but i NEVER want to loose frendships because ppl dont feel liek they can talk to me. but now that i am sitting here... i realize why i play swg... its cuz i cant handle the real world... my mind is messed up and i cant do anything about it... i think my shrink thinks im scitzo.. witch i REALY hope is not true!! cuz thatr would suck hugely not to mention kinda imbaressing but since i know nobody reads this lj that i am not realy good friends with i dont gues i have a problem putting it on here. anywho i realy hope this can be fixed... SOON cuz i cant take it much longer... i cant take the psycological ephacts of seeing a shrink either though lol so w/e im just realy messed up now so i hope you guys can understand.
DO NOT NOT IM ME CUZ IM PLAYING SWG!!!! I NEED TO TALK TO MY REAL FRIENDS TOO lol
then i got home... took a shower... and after being online for prolly half an hr nobody had imed me ;(( so then im like... why doesnt anyone im me anymore?!?!? and amy told me it was all because i play swg!!!! the whole idea of playing swg was to give me something to do while i had nobody online to talk to. but i gues it bacame a lil more than that. i realy hate it though, i dont want ppl to think i cant talk or wont talk... i always respond unless im not there. so i havent played swg at all today (unless you count the 5 mins i played while andy was here lol then realized there was nothing exciting ot show him so i loged off) i gues it realy has consumed my life but i NEVER want to loose frendships because ppl dont feel liek they can talk to me. but now that i am sitting here... i realize why i play swg... its cuz i cant handle the real world... my mind is messed up and i cant do anything about it... i think my shrink thinks im scitzo.. witch i REALY hope is not true!! cuz thatr would suck hugely not to mention kinda imbaressing but since i know nobody reads this lj that i am not realy good friends with i dont gues i have a problem putting it on here. anywho i realy hope this can be fixed... SOON cuz i cant take it much longer... i cant take the psycological ephacts of seeing a shrink either though lol so w/e im just realy messed up now so i hope you guys can understand.
DO NOT NOT IM ME CUZ IM PLAYING SWG!!!! I NEED TO TALK TO MY REAL FRIENDS TOO lol