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I feel i'm in a point of my life where love is the worst thing I could ever need.  Yet, I feel her draw me closer every day.  Every damn day it gets harder to see her without falling for her more, and I don't understand it.  I don't get it at all.  I think you were right, I think I just need to find someone else a little more available.  All I know, is of all the bitches i've seen, theres only been one who has ever given me that warm feeling deep down where you don't even think a bitch is hot, you just wanna be with her, hold her, love her.  And its fucked up because a really cool kid is with her and I could never come between that, I have too much respect for him and his family.  So, in the meantime I'm stuck in the middle, watching them get their swerve on, while I just sit back and hope she acknowledges me.  Went to an AMAZING party the other night with Zolenzuski, I was suprised I was expecting kinda a bummer party with like a few peep, and it was beyond words.  I really needed it, and could use it more often.  Drinkin, Smokin, Peep EVERYWHERE partying it up.  Bitches everywhere.  -Sigh-    So much shit on my mind and I don't have a damn cig to my name.  :(

I'm so fucking miserable.  I need help.  And It's only getting worst day by day.